Hi, my name is Anthony I am 46 years old. I have had 6 spinal operations starting in 1985 when I was 21. I have been dealing with severe pain longer that I haven't. I am tired of the medical solutions available to me. I want to live a normal life more than anything. 3 years ago I decided to go back to work after being on disability for 1 1/2 years. I was loosing my mind sitting at home. I have had my low back fused at L4 & L5 with Harrington rods as well as a bone graph being taken from my pelvis for that fusion. I have also had a several lamonectomys before the lumbar fusion and one after the fusion at L3. In 2003 I had an anterior fusion at C5 & C6 because of a car accident and as a result of that accident I have nerve damage in my right arm. This doesn't include all the minor procedures done over the last 26 years. My question is this..... My pain is getting worse by the minute and I can't imagine another surgery. The pain meds are no longer working and I don't know what else to do. I am currently taking Morphine Sulfate Extended Release 60mg twice a day and Morphine Sulfate Instant Release 30mg twice a day. Before that I was taking Oxycontin and Morphine Sulfate Instant Release. I have tried every remedy except a spinal cord stimulator and a morphine pump. I don't want to take drugs to live anymore. I am tired of living in the shadows. I have only missed 4 days of work in the last 3 years and I am so grateful for that, but I am afraid I am going to be bed ridden if I can't get a handle on this. I'm in so much pain and I am so physically and emotionally drained. I don't think I can do this anymore. I'm so scared of being back on disability again. I don't know what to do?