I am laying here looking at my medicines and never thought in all my life I would be so afraid to take my medication thinking it would be my last. Meaning that if I could hang on just one more hour that would make it last longer. knowing the longer I wait the worst I will get. But due to my general practioner is no longer going to prescribe my medicine and knowing that no other doctor will take me on. See not because I misused my medicines but because he does not feel right in giving them to me. All that is running through my brain is how can I make it or my family .Knowing that I will be laying on the floor begging to die because of the pain is one of my thoughts.I have been there so many times. I live it daily but at least with the medicine I could function half way like getting to the bathroom or just getting myself something to drink is a miracle. I live in a small town and about 2 years ago went to a pain clinic that got me stable and they said as long as I had a local doctor to keep a eye on it that would be better because the travel was too much for me and my family. This doctor agreed and even once in a while spending a few days in the hospital was ok. Now all a sudden no doctor and the pain clinic will or can not take me either. I went to see a nuerosugean to only fine out that when I went back in the hospital for 3 weeks my general practioner did not send me right away to take care of my back that now I have permanent nerve damage. That no surgery could ever help me again. I have had to many back surgerys already.I can not sleep or eat I am so afraid of dealing with the pain and not having anything to take care of it and also no doctor and here I was doing so good (the medicine was working) it took over a year to get the right recipe together and now to know I will have to go back to nothing .I am afraid of withdraws also and going to the er just for them to give me a shot and send me home (it will only last a couple of hours)I am afraid for my family too They have been threw this in the past and My husband is going back to Iraq and I have noone to help me at all.I live in a area that has no specialist in pain or no nuerosurgean either they are all 3 or 4 hours away. I am willing to travel if I could fine a doctor that would see me and would listen and understand. I wished I never had to take another pill the rest of my life but I know by me laying here now making my medicine last that within 2 weeks I will be dealing with almost death. I called the neurosugean and all his office said was that it was out of his hands he does not do anything but surgery and not pain control. he said I needed to fine a doctor to handle my medicine. I know I sound all messed up but I am in a state of shock because I did nothing wrong and took my medicines as I should. I am taking soma, percocet, actiqs 600mg and a duregisic patch 100mg these medicines work. I have tried all the others you name it i have. if any of you know Of any doctor in north carolina that would see me and speaks english well ( see my former doctor did not understand english well) Which is one of the reasons I think he quit we could not communicate well and he even said if he could not heal me by dec. he would let me go. My test shows no healing . At least with the medicines I could function somewhat. please if anyone out there can or know what I can do let me know. I am willing to call you or you can call me. My story is very long. how I got like this- I was in a driveway getting mail and looked up to seeing an eighteen wheeler driving off the road hitting me in the side and broke my back and feet and I never got a penny he was illegal. So it goes on and on. I have called the medical association etc etc please anyone if you have a doctor that understands chronic pain and is not afraid of prescibing medicine do let me know this is like life and death. excuse the misspelling I am hurting and had only 2 hours sleep due to the pain. I know my pain is real because I can be in a deep sleep and within 2 hours awake screeming for relief.


Faulkner
Hello dear, it's nice to meet you.
sounds like life has taken a turn for the worst feeling situation that I think any of us can be in.
I've tried to think of something usefull I could find for you and I'm a little disappointed that I'm not able to do more, but here is a page that has some information to easily search for pain management doctors in your area or all over the US. http://www.painfoundation.org/page.asp?file=Links/FindDoctor.htm
I really think that it is a disaster that chronic pain patients can be hung out to dry, as you've explained here. If this link does not help you to at least find a doc in or near you, then send me a message and I'll try and find some phone numbers to some patient advocacy and see it they can help any.
As far as I'm concerned and what you say, I've understood properly. I think this should absolutely be a crime, to send a chronic pain patient out and not even give them some options to get another doctor or something that may help them. I wonder what would happen if a doctor dropped a diabetic or a epileptic like this with no alternative to recieve their meds or treatment.
If a doctor decides they are not going to treat a patient any longer for what ever reason, they should be held accountable for trying to refer the patient to another doctor that can help them.
My heart weeps for you and I'm so sorry that you've been treated this way. I wish I could do more to help you, but let me know if you want me to search for more phone numbers or something that may help. Unfortunately I'm on the other side of the country and just don't know what to do. Since your husband is in the military, are you able to go to the VA pain clinic? I'm not sure how it works for spouses and family of military men and women.
I'm here even if you just want to talk! you can get my e-mail and information by clicking on my name and it should take you to my profile page.
My prayers are with you and your family, I hope you can recieve some help and relief soon.
Betty