Thank you to everyone who responded to my previous posts. I think the past few months have been trying to prepare me for what was coming. I have been able to find more more pain than I thought possible. My left leg from hip to toes has been spasming since December 22. That day my husband took me to the ER. The doctor there was kind and respectful to what was going on. He gave me some reasonable pain medication, in fact he was the first to give me proper medication. So, I actually felt quite well over Christmas. That was it. I saw my doctor the other day and he sneared and said, people who take that level of pain medication should be dying of cancer etc.
In the meantime, I am starting to feel sad, and I am on effexor! I am afraid for my life. I am afraid of losing my handsome, active caring husband, because this sucks for him too. He has found some entertainment that does not include me, but I still fear. Everyone looks at me as though thinking, "what is it now..."
I read somewhere recently that the #1 cause of death among people with chronic pain was suicide. Don't get me wrong I am NOT suicidal at all. But I understand what they are saying. Life is constant pain, and I feel like I am watchingit go by.
I love my husband and my kids with my whole heart, soul, fibre and being. I just wish I didn't feel like such a burden to them. 
Carnie
It's sad and cruel. I am happy to know that you received good care at the E.R. My family physician tells me either he doesn;t know what is wrong so just go home and live with it or something like "So, you're not the only one with sore legs" or "Look, it can't be you have all those pains in all those places all at once" in other words it's all in your head...
I have been where your at. I was refered to a neurologist who told me that I was on too much pain medication. I told him that it was all prescribed by my M.D. He said that there was nothing wrong with me, it was all in my head and that if I was not off the meds. by the time I came back to see him in 2 weeks that he would hospitalize me for detoxification. Well needless to say I told him he was crazy and I knew exactly when I was in pain and when I wasn't. I didn't go back to see him again.
About the effexor, I was on that for about 3 years and there came a point that it wasn't doing what it was suppose to do any longer. I was refered to a Psyciatrist and she prescribed something different. That would be my advise to you, to have your regular M.D. refer you to psyciatrist. Don't get me wrong, you aren't crazy, you just need a M.D. who is specialized in the field of depression who has a better understanding of the different depression drugs on the market. I hate that depression is part of the mental health field but, it is and therefore people with depression are sometimes labled crazy. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. I hate the stigma that is attached to it and futhermore, If someone had a mental condition it is not a crime or something and its not contagious. You can catch it from anyone. But, where I'm from here in the south, that is sometimes how people view these things. Anyway I know I'm rambling, so, the point I'm to make is to see kind of M.D. for the right condition.
Your partner in pain
Shauna