I have been very inactive the last few months b/c I am scared of the pain to come if I am, but not anymore I am in pain everyday anyway so I will not worry about what pain I will have later, I am taking my life back and am going to be a active part again. I may not can do all the things I once done but I am tired of being scared to live. so I am going to live the best I can and deal with the pain as I go. I started back exercising again today I may pay for it later and may have a sleepless night tonight but at least I am living and enjoying it. I am tired of setting still and letting the fear of pain have the power. I will not set still anymore. I am going to live everyday to the best I can that day and take one day at a time, but will never be scared to live again.