Thought I would share a few words of encouragement. These things I speak of are from my own personal journey and please remember to seek professional help if needed or to check on advice you read online! i have know this age old friend chronic pain since childhood and have to be honest it took me most of my life to this present state I am currently at; one free of those narcottics and other meds they (docs) had convinced me that it was "my" solution to my circumstances. I have to say I belived that lil bottle was my personal savior and all! I have always been a realist and figured this is what was safe and right for me? I know we all need help with the transition through the differnet stages of our disability so I recommend all to be patient "first and foremost with themselves" then your "family and doctor". These medicines may help depending on your circumstances and I know some folks eventually have only that choice alone, but I assure their are tools to help with finding peace of mind. One must find the minimum of narrcotics needed to have Quality of life; and this should be done with a family physician to do this safely 'Not Cold Turkey' that is dangerous and could lead to more depression. The thing is friends depression and pain can go hand in hand! I myself have felt the frustrations with those around me and the doctors. i realize the doctors are just as frustrated because their job is to heal and cure not cause harm and for some reason I think they know that alot of us left with that choice of a lifetime of medications will eventually wear and tear down our health. I personally did not get to the stage of needing meds until i was around 25 years old and unfortunately sacraficed alot of childhood life by bein angry and depressed about my future looking bleak and full of suffering. I know now that this had alot to do with how one character develops and it took some time seein a physcitrist about my self hate not towards others but myself; these are physcological battles I never settled and found that they haunted me later in life at 25 years. old. I hope if anyone finds their situation to lead to that stage to do as I and find professional help. i can say honestly at the time maybe that pain managemnt helped me make that step outside the box I kept myself in my whole life. When I found myself in real trouble that is one of a physical and emotional downward spiral;
I voluntarily checked in to the hospital to have those able to help me phsycologicaly get back on my feet. The one important thing is to do this before you give into the fear. I found myself looking to numb my suffering and at the same time one tends to escape from the world; this is hte abyss that is tough to climb out of alone. Today and it took three years to get here I am narrcottic free and with my family physcians to do this safely. The idea is to make things and living everyday as comfortable as possible; be it the shoes you wear the chair you sit in the car you drive' I have to say these things are something one will have to figure as you go along in life. i am sorry I cannot give the solution, only what helped me! Quality is to me the postive people around my life and those that never dwell on my problem but treat me as an equal and know i may have a disability , but the abilty to do so many other things in life. Contribute to somthing and make it yours and cherish the good days you have a postive memory is very healing and to remember those times; not all the hurt. I know the pain tends to be constant and for me it takes my breath away at times. I personally take a moment and remember its a sign to ease up or slow down a bit; but never give in or allow it to dicatate your attitude towrds "your day" " especially yourself" and "others around you". If one can find a place to escape in creativity' be it Arts, Cultural activities, Church activities or really anything you find that brings comfort iin your life you will discover this is your God given gift to share with other and this is the TOOL no physician could have perscribed! Remeber friend that sometimes people that suffer chronic pain tend to give more of themselves to others and be cautious with this because it does bring joy and these feel good endorphines tend to be addictive and you may wear yourself out by sacraficing your need to accomplish your short term Goals for wanting to satisfy others to feel good. Their may never be "forever feel good" but their is and I promise the state in which you are starting to live evryday rather than just existing everyday.
