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HELLO ALL,
FIRST LET ME SAY THAT THIS SITE HAS BEEN MY SAVING GRACE, AND TO ALL THAT RUN IT "THANK YOU". I ALSO WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO I HAVE EVER MET ON IT, YOU TO HAVE DONE MORE FOR ME THAN ANY DOCTOR.
ONE THING THAT I CAN'T SEEM TO DO, IS FIT BACK INTO SOCIETY. BRINGING MY LOVE AND PURPOSE INTO ANYTHING THAT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS CONTRIBUTING. I CREATE ART AND THATS MY FIRST LOVE. BUT, ART ISN'T REALLY SELLING IN THIS TRYING TIME IN AMERICA. AND, IT REALLY DOES'NT GET ME OUT IN A PUBLIC ARENA EVERYDAY, BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS WORKING ON MY PROJECTS AT HOME. EVERY SINCE I REALLY HAD TO DEAL WITH MY SITUATION, MY FRIENDS SEEMED TO DISAPPEAR. ITS JUST BEEN ME AND MY WIFE. SHE HAS BEEN MY ONLY FRIEND FOR 7 YEARS NOW. HAVING MY FRIENDS ON THIS SITE IS SO GREAT, BUT HAVING PERSON TO PERSON CANTACT IS VERY IMPORTANT TOO. TO BAD WE ALL DON'T HAVE A CHRONIC PAIN CONFRENCE EVERY SIX MONTHS WHERE ALL OF US COULD MEET EACH OTHER. THAT WOULD BE SOO GREAT. IF YOU REALLY LOOK, YOU REALLY CAN'T FIND THAT MANY ORGANIZATIONS TO HELP CHRONIC PAIN SUFFERERS IN ANY ARENA. I HOPE SOMEONE KNOWS OF SOMETHING. I HOPE EVERYBODY WHO READS THIS HAS A GREAT THANKSGIVING.
YOUR FRIEND IN PAIN,
SCOT COUSIN
I GET WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM.I HAVE LIVED IN PAIN ALL MY LIFE.THE ONLY YEARS I DO NOT REMEMBER BEING IN PAIN ARE THE AGE FROM 5 YRS.TO 12 YRS.BACK THEN THEY DIDN'T HAVE NAMES FOR WHAT WE HAVE.WHICH IS SIMPLY CHRONIC PAIN.I HAVE SEVERAL DIFFERENT PROBLEMS AND IT SEEMS LIKE I RUN FROM ONE KIND OF DOCTOR TO ANOTHER.I AM SO TIRED OF PUTTING MY LIFE INTO THE HANDS OF SEEMINGLY REPUTABLE DOCTORS.BUT I DO HAVE ATLEAST 4 I BELIEVE IN WITH ALL MY HEART.I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE OF NO USE TO THIS WORLD.IF ONLY HEALTHY PEOPLE COULD UNDERSTAND THAT THEIR BEING TIRED FROM WORK IS THE WORST THING THEY COULD FEEL,I WOULD GLADLY EXCHANGE PLACES WITH THEM.I AM SO TIRED OF ADVOCATING FOR MYSELF.I AM SO TIRED OF TRYING TO EXPLAIN TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS I AM NOT A DRUG ADDICT.DARN I NEVER EVEN SMOKED GRASS.I WAS CONSIDERED I GUESS WHAT WE CALLED STRAIGHT BACK THEN.I HAD A BABY AT 17 AND 19 AND 25 AND I WAS MUCH TOO BUSY TAKING CARE OF THEM TO DO DRUGS.NOR HAVE I EVER APPROVED OF SUCH BEHAVIOR.NOW IMAGINE LIVING A VERY MORAL LIFE AND HAVING MY OWN DAUGHTER TELL OUR ENTIRE FAMILY I AM A DRUG ADDICT.AND SHE IS A PROFESSIONAL HEALTH PERSON.SHE IS A RADIOLOGY TECH.I HAVE FOUGHT THIS BATTLE WITH HER FOR TEN YEARS.IMAGINE IF YOU WILL THAT I HELPED HER GET TO WHERE SHE IS.THE AMERICAN DREAM.A BIG HOME WITH A POOL,BOAT,ETC...I GUESS SINCE SHE DOESN'T NEED MY HELP ANYMORE I AM JUST CONSIDERED TRAILER TRASH FAMILY THAT MUST BE ENDURED FOR THE HOLIDAYS.SHE LIVES HERE IN TOWN AND HAS NOT BEEN TO MY HOUSE IN ATLEAST 3 YEARS.THAT HAS BEEN MY MOST PAINFUL THING.TO THINK THAT I PUT ALL MY CHILDREN FIRST.AND THEN WHEN I NEED HELP.THEY ARE TOO BUSY TO CROSS THE INTERCOASTAL.THEY ARE TOO BUSY GOING FISHING AND GOING OUT OF TOWN EVERY WEEKEND AND THEN SAYING THE REASON I DO NOT GET VISITS IS THE PRICE OF GAS.WELL SHE HAS ENOUGH GAS TO GET TO PANAMA CITY ATLEAST ONCE A MONTH WHERE SHE BAD MOUTHS ME TO ANYONE WHO WILL LISTEN.I SHOULD BE ASHAMED TO PUT HER IN THAT LIGHT.I AM SURE SHE THINKS SHE HAS BEEN MORE HURT BY ME.IMAGINE BEING WRITTEN A LETTER SAYING HER CHILDREN CANNOT SPEND THE NIGHT WITH US BECAUSE I TAKE MEDS AND SMOKE.EVEN THOUGH WE PROMISE NOT TO WHILE THE KIDS ARE HERE.NOTHING HAS WORKED.WE GET ALONG AS LONG AS I DON'T ASK TO HAVE MY GRANDCHILDREN SPEND THE NIGHT.NOW I AM TOO SICK TO HAVE THEM.I FEEL SO ALONE SOMETIMES AND IT HAS BEEN THE PEOPLE ON THIS SITE WHO HAVE HELPED ME HAVE THE SELF ESTEEM TO NOW ADVOCATE FOR MYSELF.I REFUSE TO BE TALKED DOWN TO ANYMORE.I WILL OFCOURSE LET YOU KNOW SCOTIE IF I HEAR ABOUT WORK.WHERE DO YOU LIVE.WHAT STATE OR CITY AND MAYBE IF I DO HEAR SOMETHING I WILL JET IT OVER TO YOU.I KNOW I SHOULD BE COUNTING MY BLESSINGS.I HAVE A WONDERFUL HUSBAND.I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT IF IT WERE NOT FOR HIM I WOULD HAVE CHECKED OUT A LONG TIME AGO.HAPPY HOLIDAYS AND THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME TOO....JO