chronic pain, that is causing me to rethink my life, or lack there of...

hey stow, just wondering, how you are doing , lately?? the date on this last post was aug.6?...so how are you doing NOW?? are you getting better? have you found a dr. that actually is commpasionate to your needs? i hope you are not having any more "dark thoughts"...i actually have been going thru quite of a funk...and actually wrote my husband and kiddos a "note", because i feel i can not take this anymore, i had RFA almost 5 weeks ago, and am in worse pain then before i had it..i just feel , i am not being the best mother i can to my children and wonder if they wished they had someone else for a mother, a mother who can do things, a mother wh can get involved in thier sports, school activities..involved in thier LIVES!! i also wish my husband could have a wife..that is REALLY a wife..not this body of pain..sorry, i have to go...i can not write thru my tears....cindi..