Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Feeling like a car without gas in the middle of nowhere,
My body's screaming, crying, and yelling on the inside without any care.
Fed up with the pain inside of me,
People don't understand because it's pain you can't see.
Like a bird with a broken wing who can't fly
Tears rolling down my cheek because I started to cry,
Doctor's who don't know why, people who keep telling me to try.
As the frustration floods my body I'm starting to drown, as my smile turns to a frown.
But then the frustration goes down the drain and washes away.
I'm ready to start another day.
Poem written by Michelle, 15 yrs
HELLO THERE..I TOO HAVE CHRONIC PAIN SINCE A MAJOR TRAUMATIC AUTO ACCIDENT, WHERE I BROKE MY SPINE I 3 PARTS, LEGS,NECK,HEAD, ARMS,JAW,TEETH, YOU NAME ITS BROKEN...SINCE 1991 I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN 24/7...I KNOW THE FEELING OF FEELING USELESS, SUICIDAL, TRIED IT 3X..MY HEALTH HAS BEEN DETERIOTING EVER SINCE...NOW IAM 54, ALMOST BED RIDDEN..MOST OF THE DAYS...I HAVE TRIED ALL THE MEDICATIONS AND REMEDIES AND ALTERNATIVE MEDICINE..THAT IS KNOWN TO MAN.....BUT WILL ALL THE MEDICATIONS IVE ADDED MORE ILLNESSES TO MY LIST...DEPRESSION...CONSTIPATION, BLOATING, CHRONIC FATIGUE,STOMACH CRAMPS, HEADACHES, WEIGHT GAIN, NIGHT SWEATS, AND THE AWFUL TIMES I HAD TO DETOX FROM METHADONE..MORPHINE, HYDROCODONE,OXY-CONTIN..TOO NAME A FEW...ITS A ROUGH RIDE..AND ONLY THE STRONG IN SPIRIT SURVIVE.....IAM AT HOME NOW..I CHAT WITH PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD THAT ARE LESS, LIKE, AND MORE THAN ME....THATS ALL WE CAN DO..COPE AND FIND A GOOD DR THAT WILL BE ABLE TO KEEP US FROM SUFFERING AT LEAST LESS PAIN...HOPE THIS HELPS..MY STORY IS TOO LONG TO TELL..BUT.. AT THE END...THIS IS MY ADVICE...GET SOME MEDICATIONS.THAT TREAT CHRONIC PAIN...GET SOME MENTAL HELP OR SOME ANTIDEPRESSENTS...YES..THEY DO HELP..SOME PEOPLE THAT ARE LIKE YOU...WETHER A CLUB, CHAT ROOM, FRIENDS OR GO TO A BIG HOSPITAL, THEY HAVE INFORMATION WHERE YOU CAN GO AND GET ASSISTANCE...DONT BE A VICTIM..BE BRAVE...GET ALL THE INFORMATION OF WHAT IS YOUR ILLNESS...GET INFORMED..STAY ON TOP OF NEW MEDICATIONS..ETC..
THE WORS THING YOU CAN DO IS FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF...STOP BEING THE VICTIM..DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF..ACCEPT THE WAYS THINGS ARE NOW...AND ADAPT TO THE CHANGES...DONT DESPAIR..GET HELP.....WE ARE HERE FOR A REASON...
FIND SOME MEANING TO YOUR LIFE AS IS.....
AND LIVE ONE DAY AT A TIME...REGARDLESS OF HOW YOU FEEL....
ITS HARD, BUT AS YOU ACCEPT IT..DEAL WITH IT AND GET HELP...IT WILL ONLY BECOME BEARABLE..AND THATS A BETTER WAY TO LIVE WITH WHAT WE GO THRU...EVERYDAY...
TAKE CARE...AND MAY DESTINY SHOW YOU THE WAY...
SILVIA IN SAN DIEGO..CALIFORNIA