When the pain seems so massive, unrelenting, and no relief in sight. You just can't stand it anymore! Do you ever have totally irrational thoughts of how you might be able to affect it yourself? Crazy stuff that you would never actually do...but it's a thought. Like the one about getting the drill and letting the migraine out of my head.


As I have seen it, most of us have those thoughts - especially during times of intense pain. I hate to talk about myself when replying to a post, but it might help to know someone else's insane thoughts ;)
I used to want to cut my skin off or specific muscles and I would obsess over it until I had relief of some sort. I used to cut myself a bit to experiment if it would work, and of course it didn't - but the endorphins flowed so somewhere in my mind I would think: hey, maybe it does work. Needless to say it's VERY dumb and I promised my family (after they found out) that I would never do it again. Or holding my breath until the pain stops.
I also used to plan my suicide in order to get through a pain attack - but then found an excellent way to transfer that into something useful.. Death Meditation - coming to terms with death's inevitability and then making the most of the time - the sand - left in our personal hour glass. Takes a LOT of practice. Sometimes I think pain guides us with these insane thoughts to more sane thoughts - helpful thoughts.
Humans have that instinct you spoke of in your post - drill your head to get the migraine out (I have those too so I know what you mean!! lol) - in a way it was as if the body knew what was going on: pressure in the skull - you let the pressure out... no more migraine. It was, of course, silly to say the least, but the inspiration was there and helped to trigger research into brain surgery as we know it today.
Record the thoughts with interest and analyze them - when you're able to - you might find little hidden hints as to what can help you. For me it was that pain can produce pleasure - and I have since gotten an TENS machine.. and it helps certain kinds of pains.
If they're totally out there, well - still record them. It's good to record all we got through for future sufferers - or even to share with our families so that they might better understand the struggle.
Maybe it'll also help to think - at the same time as you're suffering and thinking these rash and insane things - or as I like to call them: "Fantasy Cures" - probably 10 other people are thinking the exact same thing. Imagine yourself in a room with them, and what you would say to comfort them. Send your energy out to hold their hands and be one with their struggle, to be stronger. I know it sounds kinda kookie, but it's helped me and some fibrofolks I've known to feel less alien or alone.
Hugs and love. :)
Your not alone. There is a trick you can try. I learned this as I found my depression and crying increased my pain. So doing the opposite should help, right? Yes it is hard to "be happy" when going through intense pain, but you can try watching whatever to you is a funny movie or TV show or read a funny book. Laughter releases endorphins, too. Even just smiling does! Or even just trying to find peace through being present with the birds...listen and watch them. Whatever floats your boat that brings your emotions around to the other end of the spectrum.
This all might sound hokey and impossible. I won't tell you it always helps. It does not make it all go away in my experience, just allows a few moments sometimes so I don't go off the deep end. I can't always push through and do it. But it's a non-invasive, non-prescription method of getting your mind to talk to your body in a different way. The more we consciously think about the pain seems to make it worse, for me anyway. It's a domino effect.
Hope this helps.
Rose