I go the mental health center for obvious reasons. I'm in a few groups there. I had my depression support group today. The leader could tell that I wasn't doing very well. I broke down and shared with the group that I'm in so much discomfort and pain and I started crying. I just feel so frustrated, discouraged, and depressed because of the pain.

I talked to my mom. I thought I was going to cry, but I didn't. I don't think she knows how much pain I'm in, but really it doesn't matter because she can't do anything about it. I wasn't sure if I should ask my doctor to prescribe another med or just make an appointment with another dr. My current doctor leaves at the end of the month. After a few calls, I just got the information to just stop the Gabapentin. That's not what I read online.. I slowly increased it and so I thought I would have to slowly wean myself off of it. Though, that's not what they said. Oh well. I will just stop it all at once. I have a strong experience with medications over the last decade or more with stopping and adding dosages, so that's what I have always done (slowly weaning yourself off of it so it won't make things even worse), so whatever. I didn't get to talk to the dr. The girl I spoke up said that the dr suggested I try an antidepressant that helps with pain, as well, so she said I should talk to my psychiatrist. She also said that I should get in to see a Pain Specialist or Management place; well I thought my dr said I should see a Rheumatologist, so I thought that was weird. So I'm stopping the Gabapentin. In my last post I think I said that the dr wouldnt cover Lyrica until I tried Gabapentin because of my insurance. Well I looked up the Lyrica and Flexeril (one I'd like to try) and they both are covered, so I have no idea what my dr was talking about. It doesn't matter anymore because I think I am done with that dr since his last day is the 31.

I also called the Rheumatologist to see if there were any cancellations. There were not. Apparently, this dr is only in on every other Mondays. My appointment isn't until June. I hate this! But of course, I made the appt. I think last month and when I found that out I was devastated; I still am. I think unless if you are about to die or not breathing then you have to wait at least 6 months to get into a specialist. I'm in Ohio, so I'm not sure if it's like this in other states or not.

So whatever. I see a new doctor on April 14, since my old doctor is leaving his practice. I am mad because I wanted to see a woman dr. The dr who is leaving sent a letter listing the drs that are accepting new patients. There were two female drs, so I was hoping to get in with them. I call the office and the receptionist said that the information I was given is wrong. I have an appt with a male dr. I told them that I was being treated by Dr. So and So for Chronic Pain and would  like to be seen by someone at this office. I also scheduled to get a physical, diabetes, and cholesterol test. Hopefully I can also maybe have him do the actual Fibromyalgia exam, since my last dr really didn't do it. He said if when I touch myself and it doesn't hurt, then if he would touch me it wouldn't hurt either. So whatever, he really didn't touch anything or go over all the tender points. I'm also hoping this new dr will precribe another pain med. I don't want to wait until June to have the Fibro exam done or to have pain meds prescribed.