guardian of mental refuge!

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Sun, December 07, 2008

what pain can inspire

I am an artist that suffers from suvear phisical pain and i learned that no matter how mutch pain your in you can always get above it using your mind. its not easy however its not imposible. this sculptur stand four feet tall and was an incredible feat of indurance for me there were so many times i was crying from the horible pain and wanted to quit however my art teacher would cheer me on and help me out. it took over 100 slabs that had to be rooled out by hand. this sculptur is not only inspired by my pain alone its inspired by people who were made to hurt for there religious beleafs. I was a senyour in high school and when i was working on the sculptur part of the time i was in a weel chair due to pain and inability to walk. im now 20 and the pain has only gotten worse i have a dr. that is hesatant to use anything stronger than darvaset and the pain has taken over my life now and the quality of life is verry verry pore. i rarly do art anymore becaus of the pain but im hanging in there becaus i know that if i go to that place in my mind i can over come the pain to at least go on one more day at a time. im hoping to get the pain better managed and get back to doing what i love to do ART. i am also a poet and i wright a lot of poms however as you can see my spelling needs a bit of work!

im hoping to also oneday be able to get a job and work in my trate as a drafts woman and design aids for people that have troble doing things like a regualr person would and to rase there quality of life and make things esier for them!

best wishes

Emm

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Madeline

12/14/08 6:45pm

Hello Emm,

I commend you for keeping yourself busy and recognizing things that keep you going, which help you in taking control of your own pain. There are many things that help in the control of pain or the awareness of pain, they are all based on distraction from it. Whatever grabs your concentration and envelopes it will work wonders. For some people it may be watching a funny movie, others may be crossword puzzles. Just because at times the pain may not be easy to set aside does not mean that we are unable to, or have lost the ability to do it again. We just try and try again.

I feel confident that you will keep seeking and you will find.

Best wishes,

Madeline

ERIN ROSE

1/ 3/09 7:38am

ROCK ON! KEEP WRITING OR ANYTHING YOU CAN POSSIABLY STAND EVEN IF IT'S JUST FOR A FEW SECONDS! YOU NEVER KNOW HOW YOUR PAIN OR THE STRENGTH YOU USE TO PUSH THROUGH THAT PAIN MIGHT HAVE POSITIVELY AFFECTED SOMEONE ... LIKE ME ... TODAY OR SOMEDAY! ~~ERINROSE

P.S. SPELLING IS SOOOO NOT THE POINT OF POETRY!

Emm

1/ 4/09 6:17am

LOL spelling is so not the point and that is so true

yes i guess your right! i forgot abought my senyor year in highschool how so many people came up to me and said i inspired them made them want to work harder! i guess when your not surounded by the outside (im stuck in my house most of the time) what its like hearing positive feed back from criticks (iv goten bad too but the good is what i focus on just like with the pain)

I will admit latly iv been doing only a few minuts a weak due to lack of resorses in more than one way!

i miss my acupuncturist from were i used to live she did so much for the pain she is the reason i was able to finnish guardean of mental refuge! I cant find one localy that wont charge less than five hundred dollars or they are not seeing new patients and its such a pitty becaus i know what they can do for me and i want so mutch to be back to my old creative self.

the pain meds and muscle relaxers im taking are saping the creativity right out of my head when i take them like i should im only awake five to ten hours out of the day and i only sleep four hours at a time. however if i dont take them im up for a day or more in horid pain.

meanwhile is all i want is to go back to school and get a job in my trade. every day that goes by i feel as thought that gole is getting farther and farther a way from me!*sigh*

thanks for the comments! its a helpfull reminder!

best wishes

Emm

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