I can not stop crying over the pain and the past. How do I stop the flood of tears building up around me? The sadness is so heavy that I cannot get my head above the salt water. I am losing my mind in the whirlpool of life's swirling rage of dough ts and fears. I cannot find away out of storm that clouds my mind. Why is there no end in sight for these troubles that plague me? I feel so lost in a land I can seam to find away out. No doors, not even an exit to the end of the pain I sinking in the sands of regret. My soul is sinking in the quite sand of sorrow and regrets. How can I find a stand that want give way to instability and fear? I want to see an opening to the path that the trees have block me. I am looking for a light to shine on the path on which to place my feet so I do not fall. The vines of depression that hold me back from what is ahead for my life dreams. Should I cut them down to free my thoughts so I can find an answer to what I need to do to feel again like a person? I want to feel again, to laugh, to smile, to be a part of a group, and know I am not alone. I am proud to be me. God made me the way I am and I am not giving up on me. God dose not give up on us so we cannot give up on us.