Whenever the pain gets so unbearable that i feel like i cannot go on another hour....I remember that my strength and hope is in God and I need to rely on Him for my help
After I get to the point where I become desperate for God, I ask him for help and he reaches out his hand and helps me, if I am actually willing to let him. God cannot force us to take his hand when he offers it to us, the same way he cannot force anyone to accept that Jesus died for him/her on the cross. God gave us the choice, as humans, to choose whether we want his forgiveness or help. He can only offer it to us; the rest is up to us. The definition of ‘offer’ is to present for acceptance or rejection. God presents us his son, his love, his forgiveness, and his help for acceptance or rejection, whichever we choose. The choice is up to us.
A friend of mine gave me this analogy when I was frustrated with feeling as if God had abandoned me in my pain. She was holding a rubber toy fish in her hand, she extended her hand, showing me the fish, and said “take this, I am offering it to you”. I then took it, and she asked me, “no matter what, I could not have forced you to take the fish if you didn’t want to, right?” I replied “yes”. She explained that in the same way, God is offering us his love, forgiveness, and help in times of need, but we have to decide to accept or reject it. All God can do is offer it to us.
I believe with all my heart that God is looking out for me, and is allowing me to go through this pain (as much as it sucks) for a purpose, and I am willing to fulfill God's purpose for my life......and God also provides me with the strength I need every day to get to tomorrow.
Blessings on all of you!