Hello Deb0911

I wanted to stop in to Welcome you to the Chronic Pain Connection and It's a plesure to meet you.

I'm around here nearly daily and would love to visit with you more too.  Your welcome to send me a private message to visit and discuss our pain, life issues and treatments any time you'd like.

It's great to meet you and hope to talk with you again

Gentle Hugs

Betty

deb0911

9/ 6/08 11:59am

hi betty, i received your message, thankyou. i will get back with u in a few days, the pain is really bad today i had another procedure done thursday, and i think i hurt worse than i did before, so its hard 4 me to type.

I find myself on this site more and more reading the shareposts so that I know I'm not alone. It's heartbreaking to read  of so many suffering. I feel that pain is as much a part of me as my arm or leg. I feel as though it should have a physical form that one could see or touch. When I read these shareposts, I think you all must feel that way too. It's hard for me to explain that to family and friends so I feel so alone in the struggle to cope with it. It's hard to live among the healthy and keep up with everyday life at their pace when you are in constant pain. I've had chronic pain for 16 years and have raised my three children on my own for 12 of those 16 years. I work full-time and have been the only means of support for them, financially and otherwise. I do and have done all that is necessary to raise my children without the assistance from anyone yet when I go to the doctor seeking help I feel as though I am weak, dependent, and a general burden on society. That has kept me from seeking medical care for quite some time. I recently decided to find a new doctor and try to get help again due to several medical issues that have gotten progressively worse. Of course it took a month to get an appointment and now I'm trying to wait patiently for my insurance to approve a CAT scan and MRI. I have fibromyalgia, degenerative disc disease, fibroid tumors in my uterus, and now the new doctor think I have a hernia. I have constant abdominal pain and low back pain which radiates down my leg and into my big toe. I was prescribed flexeril to take at night but have had nothing to help during the day. I called yesterday to ask for Ultram which is a non-narcotic pain reliever and I still have not heard back from the doctor's office. Is it asking too much to have some relief from this constant pain? And do I have to feel like a drug-addict for asking for pain relievers? I wouldn't dare ask for anything narcotic that may actually help with the pain for fear that the new doctor will think I'm trying to score drugs. The really sad thing is that I could go out on the street to get these things but couldn't dare ask my PCP. . I think you have the right idea about keeping our spirits together. We have one life to live and if it has to be in pain then so be it but let's at least have some quality of life while we're here.God Bless all of you and help you through your struggles

deb0911

2/14/10 11:53am

I am so sorry, it's so sad society has put us in the catagory with druggies. And insurance companys can control our lives. I respect and applaud you, for taking care of your family. You are truly a hero, and unfortunately we'll look to our families for our future care and help. God Bless you and keep you, to bear this burden and know that their are others, to talk to that suffer with you, on this site, and other places that you can share your story, and have similar experiences, to give you and advise you on how they got help, and keep looking for an understanding dr. that will look for the source of your pain and treat it accordingly. Just make choices wisely because if you dr. hop to much then they think your just looking to score drugs. If you have to blog for referals from others that have pain in your area, not insurance companys or providers. good luck.