Feelings of Guilt Are Overwhelming Me

2 days ago I finally let the flood gates open wide an had a long and very tearful discussion with my fiancee.  While it was a VERY difficult conversation I was FINALLY able to get honest and somewhat emotional responses from him.  It turns out that he had trying not to let me know just how worried he was for me and my health.  While having him talk to me honestly about how he felt was productive I still am struggling with feeling as though I will be a life long burden for him.  Not to mention all of the things that he will miss out on if he is needing to care for me, take to my multiple monthly doctor's appointments.  What about children, we both really would like to have children but will I be able to care for a child by myself?

We have decided to get premarital counselling so that we can talk to someone who is completely unbiased and we can communicate "our" fears, concerns, issues and make a general plan on how we might deal with complications that may arise.  Now the trick will be to see if we can find a counsellor who specializes in not only premarital counselling but also understands and can deal with the issues associated with a person who is in constant pain.

With any luck tomorrow will be better!!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS !!