I hate life right now

Thanks for your comments. I am so glad my sister let me know about this site. It is a great place to find information and to vent. I will ask about the marinol. That might be a better choice for me as well, since I am allergic to smoke. I will always hang in there, but it is just tough some times. Sorry it took so long to respond. I am keeping busy at work. It helps to keep my mind off my pain when I am busy, but I sure can't do much when I get home. I am just too exhausted and in too much pain. Kim

It is so wonderful to have people out there that actually do understand. Nobody around me seems to. I don't look sick (just really exhausted), so nobody seems to notice anything until I can hardly walk or move for that matter. I really don't like to talk about my pain to my co-workers that much, so maybe I am to blame for nobody noticing me and my pain. I don't like being the center of attention and I don't like people feeling sorry for me. I will survive! I do think it is important to talk about it in some form or another though. It sure helps to get it out there for people to "see". Thank you so much for your comments. I really appreciate you spending the time with me. It would be nice to have some friends that do understand and who I really don't have to try to explain anything to. I thank God you are out there. Kim

Thank you so much for your comments and thanks for praying for me as well. I have been in constant pain since September of 2003. The doctors here in the Springs don't seem to care much about people in pain. They are all scared of patients getting hooked on the narcotics they prescribe. I really don't want to have to use narcotics either, but something that works would be a blessing. I had my primary care physician give me a consult for a rheumotologist earlier this year. That office called me back and said they don't deal with FM or chronic pain patients! That is so unreal to me. I am sure they have arthritis patients that are in pain all the time. What is it with Fibromyalgia that the doctors just don't get? I don't wish bad things to happen to anyone, but it would be nice to have these unbelieving doctors have my pain for 24 hours. That way maybe they would finally understand. It is just so frustrating. Thanks for being out there for me. Kim

Wow! I didn't read your comments until after I replied to lgh426...BUT I was just saying that! They wouldn't be able to handle it! I know better. They sit on their high horses and tell me to "just deal with it" or "work through the pain"! How can I get a handle on my pain level if none of them will prescribe anything for me? I will continue to look for a doctor who will understand and actually want to help me. I just don't know if I will find one any time soon. I certainly hope so. I so appreciate your comments to me. This site has already helped me a lot. Thanks for being out there. Kim

No they could not take it. I don't know how many times I have said that! Somewhere (probably with regards to Military injuries) someone has stated that if a person is in pain they have a right to not be in pain. That means if you need narcotics then that's what you need. A dr is not upholding his oath if he leaves you in pain! First do no harm, if you are in pain he's doing harm by leaving you in pain!!!! If he doesn't want to give nacotics haw about something else like Cymbalta or the new one that works like it? There are so many things to try. Go back and get another referal to a different rhumatologist! DEMAND it. YOU PAY THE BILL!!!! You are the one that pays for the insurance, you pay the copay. Speak up If you have to shout up! If you got service like that from a restraunt you would not accept it would you? Get going, now is you time to grow horns, breath fire and let all your anger out! I will keep you in my prayers still. It is O.K. to have anger, just make sure it is directed in the right direction. Take Care lgh426

I tried Lyrica back in 2006 along with Cymbalta at the same time. Unfortunately, it didn't work for me. I was told to just stop the Cymbalta, but wean myself off of the Lyrica. A couple of days after I stopped Cymbalta I had a seizure type episode. It scared my son and I half to death. Luckily it only lasted for about 20 seconds or so. I got up in the middle of the night to let our dogs out and noticed my son still up at the computer. He seemed really upset, so I went in to talk to him to see what was going on. I felt really funny when I first got up. I thought I just got up too quickly or something. Anyway, I leaned over to give my son a hug to comfort him. The next think I knew I was on the floor and couldn't move, talk or see. I could hear my son Chris' voice calling for me and could tell how scared he was from his voice. I "woke up" sitting on the floor with my legs straight out in front of me. Chris had helped me down slowly when I "blacked out". He told me that I was staring straight ahead with my eyes wide open. I couldn't move, talk or see. I didn't convulse like a true seizure though. It was a horrifying experience for both of us. So I am here to warn you all about Cymbalta. Don't take it! The Lyrica and Cymbalta were supposed to work well together. Neither of them worked for me. Thanks for the comments. I really appreciate any help I can get. Has anyone tried the Savella that is now available for Fibro? I haven't heard any comments about it yet and was curious.  

SOOO happy that you brought up the "Cymbalta", because I also was one who tried it when it first came out. The doctor at the time had me on opiate pain meds and started me on the Cymbalta along with it. I also had that feeling more than once of being "off balance" and I fell twice before I stopped it all together. It was soon after that when they announced that "Cymbalta" may have adverse effects on some people!! What I cannot understand is why it is still on prescribed AT ALL.... So happy that you also got off it before it was "too late"....I simply don't trust that medicine, and I tell everyone I can about it!! Sending you Hugs

OMG Lyrica!! I'm so afraid of this drug. My doctor put me on this drug even tho I don't have Fibro. He though it might help with my constant back pain. Well it really did nothing for the pain, but almost killed me. I started having problems with it right away. when I looked into all their bad side effects with this drug and I had them all and then some. My Dr. wanted me off of it too. He figured out a plan to slowly decrease the dosage. That sounded fine. Well when I got to the last ones in the plan and a low dose, that's when I thought I was going to die and oh, I wanted to!!! I sat in my bed holding myself and rocking and crying and praying and I would have done the dead even counted how many Vicodin I had, but I don't want to die  I couldn't leave this kind of legacy for my kids and family. To make a pretty long story shorter, after two trys with the same results I am now back on them. I had to lie to my Dr and tell him I really thought they were starting to work so he wooould prescribe more for me. What can I do? This drug was made in Hell!