Dealing With Chronic Back Pain for 12 Years

Shauna

I hope your monday is going well and your pain is low or at least tolerable.  Thanks for the hug

Talk to ya soon

Betty

Dear Carol,

Thank you for the kind words and stopping by to say hello.  A big fellow pain patient hug for you...(((((((((Carol)))))))), for you sound as if you've got a full plate on your hands!

My blog is at: http://shaunaslifeinpain.blogspot.com

Dear Carol,

Wow do you have a list!!  The head injury, was that from an accident?  And a 3 level fusion of the Cervical area....how is your pain after that surgery??

And then you work 7 days a week???And only give yourself 10 mintues to express your pain.....I like that...you show so much of your hard work just as a human being with pain, and have kind of 'put it in it's place' with your way of handling it.

Kind and gentle hugs to you too ((((((((Carol)))))))))))  and may you have a low or no pain day!!

Shauna 

And that last post was to Theresa...not Carol again, just messed up the names that's all.  Love to all of you!!!!!  (My night of no sleep is catching up with me!)

(((((((((((((Theresa)))))))))))))))

There,did I get it right????? 

I am so sorry Richard that you are doing this bad. I too have pain 24/7 and it can be relentless. I have Muscular Dystrophy and have been fused at levels c5-6-7-8, so I have a titanium plate in my neck, it was put there in 1995 and now it seems like it is falling apart or something. I have pain that is running down my arm into my back and so on. I dont even want to get an MRI cause that means more surgery I bet. I got one of those intrathecal morphine pumps last Sept and as it turned out I cannot get used to either morphine or dilaudid so at this point there is just saline in the pump and I dont know what to do about that at all. But have you talked to your pain mngmt Dr about possibly getting a pain pump? So many people swear they have saved their lives. You can even read about them on this website.....I just thought I would mention that to you cause you are talking about suicide and if you are that bad off then maybe you should either be in the hospital or try a different approach to your pain, I would talk to your Dr ASAP!!! You shouldnt be talking about suicide and not get help. This is an awful way to live and sometimes we all need more help then just a website can provide, I will keep you in my prayers,

Jody

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

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Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

Dear Richard,

Forgive my not coming to this website for a few weeks.  I did not see your comment, and I looked for you to have a profile so I could write a personal comment to you, or a way for us to email. 

I UNDERSTAND!!!   100% of what you are saying.  ((((((((Richard))))))))))))), you DO have people that care...those of us that may never meet you or know you in person...those of us out here in web-land...oh how I understand what you are saying!! 

Like Jody I beleive it was said to you, when she saw the big 's' word, I felt the same way.  Worried!!!!!

Richard, I too was suicidal and did attempt twice in 4 days.  I am here to write this to you, I must have a very big place here, for I should not have been able to get through those 2 times. 

I know that when I felt that way, I also felt: alone, angry, sad, anxious, angry, lost, in so so so much pain with no improvement, and angry.  Well, guess I was angry eh?? 

When you feel that suicide is an option, I know that others avenues for you have either not worked, been shut in your face, or you feel apart from your family and friends to the point that you know if you were gone, the pain would be gone too.  That was my rationale. 

But note that there are many emotional issues listed when I felt the same way.  You had also listed some of these in one form or another.  Are you being seen by a psychiatrist?  Are you taking an antidepressant?  These are extremely important things in the life of a Chronic Pain patient like us.  Nearly 99% of those I know with this being in a state of pain that we must live our lives with, are taking at the least an antidepressant.  Pain, (chronic) and depression go hand-in-hand.  It is very important that you speak to a psychiatrist, or your family or pain doc about the feelings that you write about.  Don't try to keep these feelings quiet to your physicians.  You may not think you need this extra boost, but you may be surprised how much it takes off of your feeling that your plate is too full.  I also take a benzodiazepine to ward off the anxiety that can accompany pain. 

Is there a way (if you read this) that you can send me a private message with your email?  I would love to chat with you. 

I send you loving thoughts of a low or pain-free day, and a gentle hug (((((Richard))))).  Please take care of yourself.  I am forgetting to do that!  Self care is so important....but that's another post.  At least let me know somehow about the antidepressants if you can. 

Shauna 

i believe that someone came here and made that one comment I made to Richard --=did a reply and then did it over and over.  I did not do that!!  Can SOMEONE PLEASE DELETE THESE EXTRA POSTS FOR ME OR TELL ME HOW TO DO IT?  This is very upsetting to me and I am going to report this as abuse.  No pain pt. needs to come here after months of not being here and see this, especially when my right hand is paralyzed again!

A sad and hurt Shauna