I have been treated for depression and anxiety my whole adult life and have tried to stoptaking the pain meds but am crippled by panic attacks and overwhelming anxiety. I know its "all in my head" but do not know how to escape the thoughts. Started using the pain pills because they gave me the energy to function like a normal person and made the "sad" feeling go away for a time, but now i panic if dont have a magic pill to make me feel ok. I want to stop and have researched options--rehab not being an option. Ive read stories about addicts kicking the habit after years and have been told im overreacting but I really want to stop and dont know how without losing my sanity!