Trust me..crying does help..but, not to the point that you are...you sound more like someone that needs profesional help, in regards to accepting your condition..I know chronic pain, and all the rest of conditions that come with it..i have been thru all the medications for chronic pain, from A-Z..and had to withdrawal from all of them, cold turkey..just like a heroin addict coming off the drug..is no easy task. aside from all the pain the drives you crazy, and yes, even to suicide..my story is long to tell..but..hope it helps you..I was in an auto accident,,broke my spine in 3 parts...my neck, jaws..head..arms.legs..teeth,,and i fractured all my ribs, and went into a coma 2x, near death 2x..and was in the hospital for almost a year..iam lucky to be alive, and still walking...i was paralyzed from my neck down...for 6 months..i but i had faith and a strong spirit and was able to walk again, to the astonished Drs..and here iam...Iam beleive the higher power brought me back to this earth to give all of you my story, and some hope..yes, its hard to live with chronic pain, night and day, and fatigue, and insomnia. and all the after effects of such trauma to the body...and yes...here Iam still..passing on the message..dont feel sorry for yourself, find something to hang on. too...someone near you, or around you still needs you around..get help..there are wonderful drs out there that understand the patient with pain...try the necessary medications until you find one the helps you live a better quality of life..get informed..get yourself some depression medications, if needed..go to counseling..join groups like these where there are people like you, or worst that has been able to cope..and with all the pain in the world, they find themselves being useful, creative, coping with everyday life....You are not alone...you just need to find the road that will take you to get the proper help and be able to cope and adapt with your new way of life..yes..its painful in many ways, your whole life changes, nothing is ever the same...but..we are still here..its a everyday struggle..but we are still here..and youre not alone...find yourself..stop feeling worthless or the victim..stand up and fight this thing called PAIN.....yes it a monster that haunts you day and night...but, we must be strong, and fight back...with knowledge, good medications, therapy, family, support groups, faith, good caring doctors, and a new outlook on your limited condition...thats my message to you..
hope something helps....
write to me if you need more help..
iam always around to help...
or just to listen and show you that you can become strong against this PAIN....everyday is a new day...
And dry your tears, that only gets you more worried
and weakens your system to cope...
Start on your road to recovery......
PLease...Have Faith..
Take care
Silvia