Thanks for sharing. My pain is now severe along with my severe depression. I feel like I am going to lose everything one by one. My job is the main cause of my injuries but it will be very hard to prove. I had a wrist and neck surgery done and nothing seemed to help even with recent medication change and frequent doctors visits I am still struggeling to get by with life. My pain has became a major issues in my life and no one seems to to understand. Because of the recent economy, I can even ask to move to an area where I can do lot more complex researching and some keying. Lucky that I still have a job but it requires me to keep up with the speed and key all day long. I do not knoe what else to do anymore, I understand there are many like me who is lot more stronger in mind and keeping up with their life but I can not because of my long term severe depression and coping with a chronic pain is just too much for me. I am not afraid of work and not trying to get off from the boat of reality. I just think that being in a position for too long and doing the same thing, I have inheritate these major injuries and it will continue to get worse unless I seek help, suggestions, advice and doctors advice and possibly find something else to do. I do think my pain will go down if I can stop keying all day long but where and who will hire a guy with forst name Mohammad and last name Hossain, a muslim, been in a same job for 11 years in a row, an asian american, and has medical condition and was in diciplinary actions becaue of his actions (which I think was put in to keep me from being a big mouth and being honest). Tough luck and yes, I have seen it all, no one really cares when you go thru medical condition unless you seek help from the proper people. As of today, I have a history of great work ethics, honesty, very positive, friendly and being funny, devoted to my company, hard worker and more. Along with that I also have a history of severe depression, chronic pain-injuries with history of problems relating to them like being arguementive, writing email which may sound inappropiate and was told being somewhat hostile and being aggresive from work (which I beleive was put in to keep me on a leash). I am still struggelling and do not know how long I can keep up, I feel like that I am getting really close to losing a battle of life because of my physical and mental disability. Any suggestion, help will be greatly appreciated. Thanks again and take care.






GO to a Pain Specialist! NOW! I was in the same boat as you- depressed near suicide, but I was not working and that was even worse. Stay at your job! Do not lose your insurance. With 11 years experience you could get another job if they happen to fire you. Maybe you can ask for a different position within your company doing less of what you are doing that is causing you so much pain? Try to schedule appointments around work so that you won't miss any time. ( Don't give them an excuse to let you go.) I was fired after being hurt at a company that I worked at for 10 years. It was very difficult to be searching for a way to pay for pain specialist and meds with no insurance. So keep your comments to yourself, try not to complain, do the best you can without anger and start seeing a pain specialist and a mental health counselor. You will feel so much better, once you get started on a pain regimine, and when you can get out your feelings, it's not easy but you can do it! Don't trust anyone at your work either. Just do your job, as best you can, Trust Me. I will pray for you. Good Luck!