Hello,

I have just recently finished with My boyfreind whom I think is either depressed or maybe bipolar I am not sure. Keep running things through my head as to what is wrong with him.... I put an end to the relationship as he totally withdrew from the relationship. We were together a year and at first it was alot of texting,calling,gifts,holidays. He spoilt me and I always told him it never mattered about the gifts that I would love him anyways. I am very easy going and never ever tried to control him at all and tried and tried with him but the more I tried the further away he seemed to go. I was always there for him and our sexual relationship up until the end was always good. He has had very bad relationships in the past where he said women tried to always control him,he was always kind to them and loved them but got nothing in return. His ex was very violent to him and his kids now totally ignore him.They all broke his heart and I dnt think he could ever understand why I was the total opposite to them and said he could not believe his luck after meeting me and felt he was the luckiest man alive to be seeing a woman Like me. I was always talking to him to try and make him feel better but nothing I said or did seemed to work.

I also found out he joined a dating website but he denied it and said it was not him. He always told me He loved me and missed me and me him but near the end it got less and less. He told me he was going to see someone about his issues as he felt so emty and numb which is upsetting to me as when we first met I always considered him so fun to be with and strong and to hear those words just broke my heart. He has thrown himself into work and has forgotten that I even exist. I have phoned him and text him and he has replyed but he is very vague. He started suffering alot with pains and aches and tiredness and then not sleeping enough. Loosing his temper more easily but not that much with me,I was able to calm him down, but in saying that he was very laid back in general.

For months its been like this and to be honest it was getting me down. HE SAID TO ME one day out of the blue maybe we should just be freinds and I got upset and he took it back,so told him to be honest about what he wanted and he said he wanted a relationship????

When I said I think we should finish he seemed relieved. He said I deserve better than him and not to waste my time with him and why did I stick him for so long? I told him the reason I did was becasue I loved him and probably always will. I am a very honest trusting person and would do anything for someone in trouble but feel totally lost. I am crying for the past few weeks thinking it was my fault and maybe I should never have finished it, we both agreed we would be freinds but thats proven hard for him as I dont hear from him. It feels like a sudden end and I feel totally lost and miss him like mad but he must not feel the same.

I sent him a card telling him how I felt and told him I would always be there for anything he needed or to talk? HE ignored my birthday last week, and when I really needed him he was nowhere which hurt alot!!!

Dont like him much at the moment but still Love him. He told me he would always love me, care about me, and think about me, I would like to think he was telling the truth but feel like it was not as I dont hear from him.

I stopped trusting him. There are things I know he has not told me and I know there is something he is hiding but cannot put my finger on it and probably never will unless he was honest and truthful to us both.

He said he would never cheat on me as the guilt would eat him up but for some reason I think he has.... I will never know I suppose which is sad!!! I do worry for him and hope he finds the person he used to be. there is alot more but dont want to bore anyone. Just very confused and now getting a little angry!!!

Thanks!!!x