Who is it on this site who was a Psychiatrist?I am not searching for identities.I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow.And he is a wonderful person.I have gone to him for 18 years.We used to work together at Mayo Clinic.And there have been a few times when he had to have surgery on his knee and a rotatry cuff tear.We usually talk about 2 hours.We just have a good friendship.But when he had these surgeries he stated how Oh MY God I almost couldn't do my job.This showed him how it felt to be in pain and not in control of his body.I said oh are you in pain? Just in a kidding voice.He has never doubted me.But if he were to read that someone who was in the same career as he is.And he could see how you can loose everything.And be put in a position where you are no longer what you used to be.I think it might make him understand a little better about people who live in chronic pain.We all believe in each other.But it is quite different if it is you it is happening to.It makes a much bigger impact.I last requested he do a series of shock therapy on me.I have been living with dental implants that have become infected.I have to hide myself socialy because not being able to wear my dentures ages me 30 years I kid you not.All of this with my one daughter who thinks anyone who takes RX for pain is a drug addict.These are the things that have me depressed.I have made some leaway with my daughter and she is trying to meet me halfway.And that has helped my depressionn more than taking RX for depression.He also put me on Deplin which is just a chemical your brain needs to be happier I will say because I cannot think of another way to describe it.But he actually said to me last time.I have let you down.I said how so? He told me of a place in Miami and one in Rochester that you go and live there for about 3 weeks and they try and help you learn to live with your chronic pain.Not taking away your medication.It isn't a detox or anything of that nature.I asked him why didn't you tell me this before.And he said I just didn't think of it.Well I need him to feel closer to the problem.I always bring him any new research I have and he is actually interestd in what ever I bring him.I would like him to see about how Congress finally passed the law for the undertreatment of pain in America.But I thought almost no one believes this can happen to them.Well that is why I thought it would help him to read what happened to another person who is in his shoes.How you can lose all that.If I cannot really get better about my depression.I would request shock therapy.I cannot stop thinking about all the mean things people say to me.It goes in my brain around and around like a movie reel.And when it gets to the end it starts over. I have not been able to control that for 11 years.And I can go to him every day but he cannot change my life.He has no control over that.Not even me.I have to play the cards I was dealt.So if that person would refresh me about their story I will most certainly keep it confidential.I can white out names if that is a problem.I think this is something that would help me with my treatment.If you do not want to I will understand.I am a very patient understanding person. One with severe sleep apnea.That goes bad for me because it gives me that extra time for the bad movie reel to start over and over and over in my mind.I also remember that there is one or two nurses who have lost their health.I remember one who said she spent a lot of time educating other nurses to quit lableing people clock watchers and drug seekers.Does this sound familiar to anyone.I could also use that story.To show him it isn't just regular people who do this.But people in the medical profession.Well I thank anyone who can help me out.My appointment isn't until tomorrow at 2:00.I will thank you ahead of time whether you decide to help me or not.I understand how scary loss of confidentiality is.But less face it.He cannot reveal anything because he is a psychiatrist so maybe that will help with my request.To all who are in pain.A soft gentle hug I wrap you in and pray for a kinder tomorrow.All my love and caring to each and every one of you.This is Jo signing off  for tonight.