I really don't know what to do. For months my pain meds...Methadone, Dilaudid and my Xanax for anxiety has been coming up short every month - this after being in pain management for 7 years, and NEVER miscounting or losing my meds before. I was kicked out of my previous pain doc - this AFTER reporting the afore mentioned. I now am terrified if I report it to my current doc, that he will do the same. I am sitting at home going through withdrawals, while feeling the pain from 7 herniated discs, scolosis and spinal cord compression in my back. I kept a record of my Dilaudid this month and every few days 4 were missing, one time even 23! I have an appointment Monday with my pain doctor for a procedure - if I live that long. I honestly feel as though I will either die or go crazy from the pain, and it is only Saturday afternoon. Even on Monday, if I say nothing, my scripts won't have the fill date until the 8th. Do I take the record of my Dilaudid and tell my doc my sucpecians? I can't go to the ER, as I have been treated horrible there in the past when this happenned. I am in fear that my B?P though will be so high I may have a stroke. This pain is unbearable. I only have 2 family members - my sons. one lives 2 hours away and is aware and believes the one I live with is taking them too. But, the one I live with is my primary care taker. I called the community care for aging agency in my area hoping to get some help but they told be it would cost me 400.00 a month, which I can't afford. I am single and have been living on total disability since this started and only have Medicare. Please, is there anything I can do about my missing meds this w/e? i have had none of them now for 3 days. I live in Ga.