Oh my goodness, Jane, you ARE a mess! I tried the methadone for a few weeks and didn't like the feeling at all...I felt druggy and tired all the time and it affected my voice (I am a teacher by day, and I sing at night with a band...so that was no good!). Under my pain doc's instructions, I cut back little by little with NO adverse sice affects. I was freaking about becoming addicted...but I got off pretty easily. S/he needs to give you lower doses so that you can cut down slowly till you are off. Maybe a new doctor is in order? I have fibro, rheumatoid arthritis, severe IBS, three buldging discs w/ herniation in C4-C-7...and a myriad other complaints...argh. I pray that you find some relief, but I would definitely try to find another pain mgmnt specialist. Good luck! You may chat with me any time!
Holly