I really feel for you! I have been seeing a pain doc and many other docs for a year now with a torn and leaking disk, siatica, and for some reason yet desided- missed periods or periods that last 20 days and give terrible pelvic pain. i have been on several different opiates, norco (stopped working after 6 months), percocet only works well with another long acting medicine too), fentantly patch (left me with open sores and did not help), opana (helped!!! but i couldn't pee!) and now oxycotin (seems to be helping a bit with the percocet as well and gapabentin. i am also complelty resisitant to morphin. i always tell my docs that- i have had 3 surgeries where i came out of them on morphin screaming like hell and they kept giving me more, finally they believe me and switch to something else- the last time i ended up in the hospital after a outpatient surgery for 1 week just to get on top of the pain. don't give up!!!! you are not abnormal. one thing that has really made a difference for me is getting a full nights sleep every night- and i understand that may not seem possible, my pain is at its worse when i lay down too. but i fianlly was prescribed a sleeping med- ambian cr. it really works and i never feel groggy when i get up! it has taken my pain level down to a 6!