I have days where I think dying would, not maybe, be better than the pain. Once, only once, I thought it would be better to stop treating my cancer and just wait until it killed me. I have finally worked out with my doctor a pain management strategy that has my pain well controled and I really can enjoy a lot of things again--thanks to 24/7 narcotic pain meds. Every day pain medication is the best way to deal with this kind of pain and the best way not to get addicted. Pam has been misinformed.