SalGal's Quit Smoking 2009 Resolution
NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS
I Googled "New Year's Resolution" and this is what it said, "A New Year's Resolution is a commitment that an individual makes to a project or the reforming of a habit, often a lifestyle change that is generally interpreted as advantageous. The name comes from the fact that these commitments normally go into effect on New Year's Day and remain until fulfilled or abandoned."
My problem with smoking is a see-saw of fulfilling and abandoning a habit that reduces me to a wrinkled version of Lauren Bacall in To Have And Have Not. In a study on the subject of resolutions, 52% of participants were confident of success but only 12% actually achieved them. I don't think I've ever been in the 12% but I keep trying any way.
In my mind, a resolution is a promise to yourself. My granddaddy always said not to make a promise unless you know you can keep it. That's why I never make any promises to anybody. I have resolved to quit smoking many times and was quite proud of my vow to myself until I found myself around the corner at the butt can again. The problem with me is that it's easy to break a promise to your own self. After all, who would know or care? Only you and even your cat doesn't care.
And who are you? Do you expect others to keep promises they make to you? I do. Then why do I break a promise to myself? I must not think much of myself if I do that to me. The problem is temptation. I Googled "Temptation" and this is what it said, "Temptation is an act that looks appealing to an individual. It is usually used to describe acts with negative connotations and as such, tends to lead a person to regret such actions..." Temptation is that person sitting on a park bench inhaling a cigarette and making it look good. Temptation is finding a cigarette in the miscellaneous drawer in the kitchen and realizing that nobody is around and there's a lighter in the shelf behind the duct tape in the garage and... the resolution is broken in the flash of a 95-cent Bic. You have disrespected yourself again.
Maybe the problem with me in the past is that I tried to emulate Gandhi or someone like that and then when I couldn't live up to that high standard I had the easy out of saying that nobody could. So, I'm not going to try to make myself into a saint. I'm just going to resolve that in the year 2009 I will not do injustice to myself by sucking poison into my own lungs, I will not look at people on park benches and I will clean out the miscellaneous drawer in the kitchen.
My New Year's Resolution:
Be the kind of person that you wouldn't break a promise to.