Hello I am a 29 year old female that is having alot of personal problems right now. I lost my job alittle over a year ago so that is definitely taking a toll on me. I have been searching for a job ever since to no avail. I live in low income housing that will not allow me to go to school. They say that I have to have a dependent in which I dont have. They say if I go to school I will have to pay the market rent of about 700 dollars a month. How can i afford this with no job. I have been trying to have at least one child for over 5years now to no avail. I dont have any insurance to go to a fertility doctor so I am also screwed in that aspect. I love children more than life itself. I have been crying everyday and dont want to get out of bed. I am upset, discouraged, and miserable all the time. I have been trying to pray everyday. I am numb and I feel hopeless cause I dont see a solution to my problems anytime soon. I want to go to school more than anything right now. I have been researching depression and I dont know if that is what I am going through or if I am feeling something else. I would greatly appreciate any advice someone can share with me and all the prayers people can spare. Thanks in advance for all of you alls help you can offer.
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Hi there
First of all...I commend you for your aspirations. Don't lose your dreams no matter what. Things are bad right now but they can improve. Easier said than done I know.
I am not a therapist and cannot diagnose you but I do think you are in a situation right now which makes you feel trapped. You are trying to help yourself...to get ahead...and the system is against you. Nobody can walk in your shoes but I have been in a similar place in my life at times. For half of my life I was dirt poor...I grew up on poverty...not knowing where my next meal was coming from. I did get to go to college and to graduate school so I know it can be done.
I think you need to set up a list of priorities of what thing will help you to do the other things you want to do. Right now it seems overwhelming because...you are wanting to overcome many obstacles at once. Maybe choose one thing right now to focus upon which will set about a domino effect on the other things.
In my humble opinion...I think getting a job now will help. If you get a job you might be able to afford better housing and in turn you will be able to go to school without those rules. What are your thoughts? How about sharing rent with a room mate or some other situation where you don't have to pay for it all?
In the meantime...for your mental health...I have just posted an article about how to get mental health services and/or medication when you have no insurance or money. Here is that article.
I know it seems hopeless right now but it isn't. You can do this. Keep those dreams...just tackle things one piece at a time.
Keep writing here...I want to hear how things are going for you.