I have managed to lose all my friends. Depression has made me sad,mad Angry bitchy. tired restless. You name it I feel it. l feel not like Im not living, just existing. My poor kids and Mother. They walk on egg shells around me. Yes I have reasons to be sad, but outright rude NO EXCUSE. My Sons over in Afganastan. . His choice. he reenlisted for another 4years. His Birthday is in two weeks. Since he took on a wife, I say it that way because I never met her ,not until 10 days before he deployed. I haven't heard from him. My second child, well he hates me 20 years old and has been in trouble for over 6years now. I love him so much but my depression chased him away. Hes depressed himself, diagnosed with Bi Polar. He won't get help. drinks all the time and blames me for all his problems.He's right. I was always there physically but Mentally never. I've been on everything to try to help me. I also have a 9 year old Daughter, from another failed Marriage. She's a great girl. I put so much on her. I exspect too much out of that little one. She looks out for me. It's so wrong. I'm mean. I can't seem to fix anything. This SUCKS PEOPLE... my first time on this sight and I'm afraid all of you first of all won't reply, and second tell me to just snap out of it. Any thoughts out there???