Information and opinions on Depression from hamstergirl at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/rss self application/xml en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192 http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/83994/end-triggering Sun, 23 Aug 2009 22:10:18 -0400 hamstergirl I can't take things anymore. People are going to interpret the why's of it however they want. My mind is demanding death and I don't have the stomach for suicide. But I can't take the pain any more.   Please pray for a friend of seven years who is going to be devastated should something happen. I've hung on for as long as I could. Because I am on morphine for chronic pain, no psychiatrist will give me proper therapy.   I just spent... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/83994/end-triggering http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/83223/triggering Mon, 17 Aug 2009 23:54:28 -0400 hamstergirl My sponsor in the Catholic Church has been in town the past couple of days. He's my spiritual advisor and more. He has been my main hold on sanity since chronic pain entered my life four years ago. He often talks with staff at my Church in an attempt to break my isolation, boost my morale and improve my situation.   I would happily do almost anything for this man. He has often told the story of how we met and how I came to be a Catholic.... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/83223/triggering http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/79957/lunch-straw Sat, 25 Jul 2009 09:20:11 -0400 hamstergirl I nearly choked several times on my breakfast this morning. I'd go to the ER, but they can't fix my spine at the moment, or at all, which is causing the problem. So I am going to go out and buy a case of Ensure.   I don't really have anyone to talk to about this. I have been a recluse for much of my life. I do have a few friends, but they would be worried if they knew what was happening up here.   And quite frankly, I am not... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/79957/lunch-straw http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/79915/home Fri, 24 Jul 2009 19:33:40 -0400 hamstergirl The doctors are afraid my spinal curvature is worsening and/or I am getting spinal fractures that are causing me to slump over. It's more than a case of posture and looking good. My spine is crushing my lungs to begin with, but it can get worse. My swallowing is now affected. I am getting things stuck in my windpipe. I am also getting winded when I go from wheelchair to bed.   There is surgery for it, but here's the thing. I also have... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/79915/home http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/75484/nuts-triggering Sat, 20 Jun 2009 02:18:07 -0400 hamstergirl I have officially been living with depression for 17 years. I have had emotional problems and was isolating from others since age 5, when my parents sent me to a psych research facility for the intellectually challenged. (I am not and have never been retarded! I got sent there anyway. It has scarred me ever since, especially since my parents were regularly screaming emotional abuse at me over this and other things.)   There is a... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/13192/75484/nuts-triggering