Hello my friends,
I want to ask whoever who read this, do you think that sexual abuse and family relationship issues impact the individuals relationship?
I for myself, dont want to believe that because i strongly believe that I am the one who controls my life. So that means those events should not be given importance. But, anyone who goes through my crappy relationship statuses can only assume i think only one thing - SHE HAS GONE MAD????
Dear Friends can you please help me identify whether I have commitment issues???
a.) I had my first crush when i was 12 years. This guy was than 14years old. I even proposed to him that i was in love with him. But he made fun of me and we never talked till today.
b.) The next crush was when i was 13years old. I started dating this guy. he was 4years older than me. we went out for nearly a year. i was very sad that time when he broke off what we had.
c.) Than the next guy i went out was way older than anyone. he was in his 20s while i was just 14years. we kissed a few times, but it was just a short time thing that lasted for around 3months. i got bored and i moved onto another person
d.) Than i had a crush with one of my tiution class mates. He was two years older than me. we flirted with each other a lot. this guy was than dating another girl. But i really liked this guy unlike the other guys. I was really into him. But knowing that he was dating another girl, i didnt want to be an intruder inbetween them, so i walked away. Nevertheless we had contact each other and we are friends till today.
e.) Next i went with a colleage of mine who was also way older than me. he was also in his 20s while i was 14yrs. but it lasted short too. just like 2-3months.
f.) Than i got back again with my first boyfriend (b). than i was 15yrs old. this time also it lasted like around 9months. we broke up in agreement. i was not in any misery this time. I was happy.
g.) again i hooked up with another ex-boyfriend (e), the one who dated previously. but it didnt last either. I got bored and as my GCSE exams came up, i focused into my studies ingnoring all these stuffs.
In between all these hook ups, i really liked this guy (d). We are friends till today. I liked him at that time. he had a pretty big influence over me in over all my relationships till i had my very first real relationship.
h.) After completing my 10th form, i started dating a guy who was 4yrs older than me. I was than 16years. This guy was 20years. I really liked him. But my mom strongly disliked the relationship. but somehow we lasted for nearly 3 and half years.
while i was dating this guy, i had an infatuation with one of my class mates in high school. i really liked him and he also liked me. but as i was in a relationship, he walked away from me. so my relationship with that time boyfriend went smoothly. this relationship started suffering, once i started working.