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Just wanted to welcome you to the site. Your situation is identifiable too many people here. I hope that you search out answers because depression is treatable. At the end of last year I was ready to grab a rope off the shelf and end it. And today I am here to say that I am still here. Too have faught and won is such a proud feeling. Remember that this is an illness and needs to be treated, only you can battle this. You are so young and have so much life in front of you.

Call your doctor, local mental health society or a counselor near you and start talking about it.

Pat

wow your story sounds alot like mine ,,hard to get out of bed ,wanting to be a recluse,pushing people away/..i know exactly where your coming from ,,cause im there too..i can barely go into public anymore,cant be myself anymore,,it has ruined my life.nobody ever said life was easy i guess hey,well just to let ya know your not alone //take it easy and good luck

my son takes medication but it hasent help him he stop working and he lie in bed all daynot wanting to talk or do anything i stay with him but he avoids talking or any kind of help i dont know why this happens you should make an efford to get a part time job and make a step each day like get out for walk feel your life each day with one more thing  i relly feel very sad when as i can understand you as i am leaving everyday with my son no body can help  if you dont try my name is maria iam from cyprus hope you get out as soon as possible im think loneness makes things worse 

my son takes medication but it hasent help him he stop working and he lie in bed all daynot wanting to talk or do anything i stay with him but he avoids talking or any kind of help i dont know why this happens you should make an efford to get a part time job and make a step each day like get out for walk feel your life each day with one more thing  i relly feel very sad when as i can understand you as i am leaving everyday with my son no body can help  if you dont try my name is maria iam from cyprus hope you get out as soon as possible im think loneness makes things worse 

I am a psych nurse that actually has suffered with depression also. I have had many patients who suffer from depression. It can be life threatening, and certainly life altering.

You do not say why you have not sought a psychiatrist to help you. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain. When it is as severe as you describe you need the help of a doctor. If you should feel like you may do something to harm yourself call for help NOW!! Otherwise pick up the phone and make an appt. with a psychiatrist or call your community mental health center. You can get your life back, but not by lying in bed doing nothing.

Good luck, now go to the phone!

Dear Screaming,

I am so glad you found this sight.  You are not alone in this struggle with Depression.  In light of the Economic Situation and all the stressors, especially the weather here in Michigan hasn't been the most promising.  I have a hard time with holidays and whatnot because I lost my Mother 3 1/2 yrs ago but am still struggling with it.  On Christmas Day I laid on my bed and cried thinking of what we used to do of going to Mom's every year.  I was invited away but I didn't feel like "intruding" on another family.  On January 3rd, which would have been my mother's birthday, the family decided to have our "Christmas".  It was hard for me to keep my emotions in check especially when my sister handed out our scrapbooks and baby books that Mom made for us. 

I believe you'll find help on here so keep up the good work!

I recently had enough and had to end the relationship with my spouse, i am a 27 yr old Male-female TS. I am have been transitionng for 1 yr. everything in our relationship was ok with me transitioning as far as how my wife wa with it, the problem was she had a boarderline personality disorder and never would see anyone about it becase th meds they had her on in the past, she said did not work. so things were kinda bad at times when she would go Consiquently i had just underwent facial feminization surgery on 1/29/09 the basically made my face totally different to the point i look totally different and my wife began to get extremly jelious and started abusing me agian and this time i fianlly put my foot down and ended our relationship. im was not even back to work yet and she was pushing me around like a dog and i just could not take it, nw the problem is i feel totally depressed because i am so afraid of being without her, i know i can take her back because it will all start back up again but i was supposed to go back to work this week for the first time in 5 weeks since my surgery and cant even get off the couch because i am so depressed. i cant sleep, i cant eat, i can do nothing but sit here and i know that i have to overcome this but just dont know how. my doc just put me on lexapro yesterday so im hoping it will help me some and he gave me ambian to sleep which worked very well last night, bt i woke up today feeling like carp and totally depressed. had anone here ever taken lexapro? I never took anything for depression and dont know all tht much about it so any help would be great.

Kelly

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If it's helpful in your situation (I'm not exactly clear on your situation), you may be eligible for State, and then after a year, Federal (meaning Social Security) Disability.  You can call the main state government phone number, or Google "[your state] disability benefits information" or a similar phrase, and get the information that way.  I ended up on state, then federal disability back in....around '95 because of severe clinical major depresion.  It's a valid reason for receiving disability.  I'm still on it.  My depression is in that class that never lets up, and is extremely hard to treat.  I hope you don't have that kind, and I don't think you have to have that kind to be eligible for disability, because we didn't know it was that kind back then.

Maybe this will be helpful in the future if it isn't now, or maybe it will be helpful for someone else.

All the best to you.

Give your family a chance. I Know as a mom who has two teenage girls and they both have had there own battles with depresssion. Family is a big part of getting better. Don't wait till it is to late!! My oldest daughter who had been depressed tried to commit suicide. Her little sister is the one who found her in our bathroom with both her wrists cut. Her little sister know is harming herself by cutting, things that she had seen her big sister do. Go to your mom or dad and ask for their help. they love you and will do everything they can to help. I wish you all the best. PLEASE get some help before it is to late..

Hello,

Your story brings tears to my eyes and I wish I could give you a hug.  I am a 40 year old very happy woman with a beautiful family and have also never been on any sites.  At times I feel that I am exactly in your shoes and it seems to come and go for no real apparent reason, since I was a teen.  I've always kind of hid it well and have never considered a doctor, but finally at my age, I think that it really is a chemical imbalance and I probably would have benefitted from seeing one.  I hope you do, as someone has stated.  But be careful to get a good one and careful about the medications.

With my beautiful kids, I've really had to dig deep and find out how to rid myself of, at least symptoms of, depression, for their sakes.  Something that GREATLY helps me is to cut out most of the sugar in my diet.  And I've found consistent exercise to be a huge benefit, too.  Also, my catholic faith has been a huge savior for me.  I found a church with a wonderfully guiding priest and it changed my life.  Also, volunteering and keeping yourself busy with charitable and other activities is great.  Keep yourself active in different groups.  Give yourself a push everyday.  Consistency helps.  And being around others a lot, rather than a little, makes all the difference.  It gets you used to others and makes you realize you are not so different, you get to understand why and how things come about in relationships.  Try giving to others and being thankful for all the good things instead of feeling sorry for yourself and sad.

Also, have you ever read the guru Tony Robbins?  I know it sounds corny, but he is really motivational.  When starting his program, he says to take one week and try to not have any negative thoughts about anything.  Maybe one of his books would help.

Good luck.  Take hold of yourself.