Hi i am 25 year old Man, I have lived with depression for most of my life, i am quite sensitive to what people say to me and take it to heart, when people around me are down i always feel its because of something that i have done wrong to them.I have often compensated this feeling by being extra nice to people and always avoiding confrontation but this backfired as people often thought of me as weak and submissive and would treat me with less respect. This has also affected my relationships with women, I have come across as boring and with no personality as i am always hiding the real me and protecting it from getting hurt.I have very little trust in people, I am generally ok when i first meet someone but i am full aware that people change as they get to know you, and when they finally pick-up on your weaknesses thaey treat you differently, this has happened so many times which is why i tend to keep people at arms lengh.

This has made me into a very lonely person, if i had a wife and kids i probably wouldnt feel like this.Ive often thought about taking my own life but the only thing that stops me, is leaving my parents and family to pick up the pieces.I would rather just dissapear and never be found.i am taking eachday as it comes, reading experiences from other people makes me realise that i am not alone and there there is hope, i will try and let people into my world as its better than closing myself off and if i get hurt i will have to take it like a man.