I have talked to several people lately about my depression, but that didn't help. I never feel really good but some days I do want to get out of bed. This weekend I was in bed all day Saturday feeling awful, and Sunday I did get out some. I went to work today but the depression just gets overwhelming. I have gone to different doctors and I am seeing my gp tomorrow to see if he can change my antidepressants. I am tired of going thru this, it has been ongoing for two months now. I have no Christmas spirit, I just exist and have lost my will to live.
My minister gave me a book on depression yesterday but I wish I could just see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am tired of depression ruling my life. Everyone is so happy around me and I just wanna crawl in a hole and die.
Hey there
I am so sorry you are feeling so down. What antidepressants are you taking and what changes will be made do you think? Has any antidepressant worked well for you in the past?
Depression is like that...mornings and weekends can be rough...I had written a post once about morning depression and how that is often the worst time for people with depression and weekends are rough because of all the unstructured time.
So what other symptoms are you having? Is there any part of the day or any activity which brings you closer to feeling less depressed?
One thing that helps me sometimes is to know that this is a temporary state. It does not have to last forever...that depression is not our fault...and so much of this is biological. You are going to have some bad days but it can get better.
Keep talking to us. We are glad you are here.
Merely me,
I am on Fluouroxetine and my doctor just bumped it up to 40mg this morning. I don't think it is going to make a difference though because I have been taking 40mg alot lately because I feel so miserable. How long is this so called "temporary state" going to last I have felt this way for 2 months now and I have tried new doctors, new medication and nothing seems to help. I have lost my will to live. Nothing I ever enjoyed doing seems fun anymore. I am just existing.
Don't worry about how long the depressive mood is lasting...it is an intense learning state...you need to start problem solving again...so ask yourself what is bothering you at the moment...write out that long list and then decide to think about them one at a time over the next few weeks and begin improving your situation one step at a time. In doing so only do one thing at a time ...start with the ones you feel you are able to do something about....don't tackle things you are not yet able to solve...bide your time until you have all the resources and help you need from others to suceed. Think back to a time when you felt confident and filled with energy and how you did things then...this helps some people to reconnect to their resources and begin using them again sooner rather than later.If you can't do that yet then have a holiday, rest a while and be content to be with yourself and spending time to reconnect with the things you want from life.
I am wishing you a very restful, peaceful and contented Christmas with the hope of renewed energy and learning in the new year! Wishing you well, all the best!
Hypno