Sometime in the mid-1990s my mother uncovered some photos of me as a child that I'd never seen before. I flipped through them and ...
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Lost childhood
Jan
Friday, September 28, 2007 at 12:33 PM -
Thanks for sharing your story
2bsMom
Friday, September 28, 2007 at 01:42 PMHi Deborah,
Thanks for sharing your story. It really touched me.
I soon realized that I, too, had been depressed from as long as I can remember. As with you, it affected my entire life. It turned me into a recluse and affected my educational pursuits, career choices and contributed to a couple of bad marriages. I am lucky enough, now, to be married to a great guy and have three children, all grown, from my first marriage. I regret not having done more with my life. I recently took early retirement from a clerical and mundane job I had held for many years. I do have a degree, which is worthless, in sociology, so I wound up working in clerical positions throughout my lifetime. My husband, who is a few years younger than me has a fullfilling career and may never retire. I have almost no friends or social life, other than visiting with my kids and grandkids. I do have a couple of dogs that I adore and an elderly mother living in a nearby retirement facility. She's still feisty and as difficult as ever, and my being the only one to take care of her adds to my depression.
Like you I, too, wonder what my life would have been like if I hadn't had these emotional handicaps from early on. I try, when I make a conscious effort, to focus on what I do have and not what could have been. But it is and always has been a struggle.
You are so young and could do so much with your life if you could get over the past. I think you're on the right track.
The best of luck to you.
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