Thank you for your post. Like some of the others, I have suffered from depression since childhood and could only identify it in retrospect once I started to feel better.
Initially, I fought against the doctor's diagnosis of depression, thinking my problems were "stress". That is, until I started crying one day and couldn`t stop.
Even today, my first sign that my depression is getting the better of me is overwhelming job stress. This is accompanied by feelings of <almost> paranoia. As mentioned in the initial list, not only is everyone "irritating", but it feels like they they are acting the way they do just to p___ me off! I start thinking that the only way to solve my work problems is to quit and walk away. This leads to thinking that the only way to deal with my life problems is to "quit" my life.
Unfortunately, depression's progression is insidious. It doesn`t register with me until I`ve created problems with myself at work, and problems with my relationships at home. The comment about being self-centred resonates with me. But I am so blind to what is going on inside myself, that I look to my environment to try to interpret why I am so unhappy....
I`m having terrible problems with depression now, struggling with panic attacks and acting out at work... I`ve been taking Effexor for years, and haven`t had any success with adding other drugs in combination. Not sure what I`m going to do this time. Yoga has helped in the past... it`s a good suggestion.
Anyway, thanks for the post...
Deborah,
Thank you for your wonderful share posts. You give information and knowledge and help that only a depression suffer could give. Your posts help by giving me hope and the knowledge that someone understands. This helps to counter the lack of understanding among those medical professionals who have not had depression, as well as the general public. One who has not experienced it as you have, can never have more than a partial and limited understanding. Unfortunately, this is the nature of humans.
Thank you again!!!
Mike
You have some great points here and some comments have some great suggestions too. I for one do not take any medication for my depression. The reason I am depressed is I get bullied daily at school, and I have talked to the school nurse and she doens't really know what to do. I am quite a smart kid, and only being 16, I really would like some help on getting back to my old wonderful life. I get bullied because I am smart and I like to learn, where as the other kids in my class think I am a nerd, and only make fun of me for it. I dread going to school most days, and only hope that the bullies will not be at school or they will leave me alone. The headmaster at my school doesn't seem to understand my situation, nor does anyone else, besides my father who was bullied in high school. Do you have any suggestions that would help me?
Thanks
Christopher
Just putting this out there ! I want to DIE now ! I can't see the pleasure everyone has in saying life is worth living for (For What?) Nothing including what people think meds. money sex, life, I can go on and on but I don't want to be on this planet any longer. For what ? NOTHING is going to make me happy. I JUST WANT IT OVER but I don't want to kill myself - cause that's too depresssing and I am too lazy too attempt it & probably would fail at that and end up as a vegtable or worse in an insame assylum ! I know I am not nuts, I just don't want to be here anymore. GOD or whatever higher being please take me away in my sleep ASAP tonight (I keep praying it will happen in my sleep but then I wake up. Oh well - hopefully TONIGHTS my lucky night, CHRISTMAS DAY ! Woo Hoo and Bah Friggin Humbug !