need email buddy

By kittylove32 Thursday, June 18, 2009

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hello, iam new here. i've been dealing w/ depression/anxiety for 5 yrs now. at 1st it was so bad that i had panic attacks everyday. i had a great job of 6 yrs and eventually quit, went through several jobs after but anxiety/depression always got in the way. i haven't worked in 3 yrs, trying to get disability. now iam pregnant(6 wks) and iam off my med's. i can tell that iam not doing that well. i pretty much sit on the couch all day and watch tv. i only go out to go to dr appt's and the foodstore. iused to have a nice figure but in the last 5 yrs i've gained so much weight and that bothers me everyday. i have no self esteem anymore. i feel like i have no purpose in life. i have no motivation at all. just cleaning the house has become too much for me. could really use a email buddy if anyone is interested.

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LyraStorm

6/19/09 12:49am

Hi there, You were kind enough to comment to one of my posts (I also haven't worked for three years) so I thought I might return the favour. If you need to talk I'm more than happy to listen though I'm not sure what I can say in return... generally I try to do things to make myself feel worthwhile. Even if it's simply making myself get up at a reasonable time and do a single housechore, or go for a walk, or do a puzzle (puzzle books are one of the best things for depression - it keeps your mind active and you get a feeling of accomplishment upon completing them). I go in and out of the habit of forcing myself to go out for jogs around a nearby lake - again feeling of accomplishment plus keeping myself fit. If that sounds like too much perhaps you can persuade your reluctant body to walk to the shops when you need things (I try to walk whenever I have to go out, though I will avoid going out if I don't have to). I guess in the end it's one of those self-discipline type things: pretending your one of those personal trainers that yells at people to do things except you're doing it for yourself... when I say it like that it sounds so easy, huh? It's not, but maybe worth a try... now I sound condescending, sorry... It's tough and I'm not really sure what to say but if you want to talk I'm here.

depression/c/913903

7/ 3/09 5:57pm

Hi Kitty,

I understan how you feel. I've there for several years, gained weight, I think due to grief and not getting out of bed and possibly my anti-depressant. I was slim when my son died and the started to come on.

I've changed my anti-depressant to Serzone again, that was the one I took before my son's death. So when I couldn't get out of bed due to grief, the Dr at that time prescribed Effexor, and I took a higher dosage of Wellbutrin. Both meds are generic now. I am beginning to lose weight, I'm not weighing myself just can tell that my old clothes I am able to wear again, and the other ones are loose on me. My therapist even noticed. So this have really made me so happy.

As I have been slim when I got married lost more weight after my first child. It was easy to do since I had more activity with a baby around. So after 5 children, I would lose the weight by walking 3 miles a day within an hour. I would push my babies each time in a stroller. Watched what I eat, cooked healthy foods with whole wheat or cracked wheat in them.

It was only after my son's death that caused me to weigh more than all my pregnancies. I watched tv a lot too. But as spring and summer came about I put my energies outside and gardened. This is not in a flower bed gardening, but larger and I do a lot of walking up and down a slope on our property. Also, I don't have an appetite, I think due to my antidepressants.

I can't really carry a job either. My concentrations levels are down and I get shortterm memory loss. Hang in there Kitty. Think positive thoughts, that is helping me at this time.

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