Monday, August 13, 2007
I know I need to go see the doctor... I know how dangerous the risk for infection is... I know proper treatment will reduce healing time and amount of scarring. Why am I not going then? Why is it so hard? I don't want to have to do the whole hospital thing yet again. Waiting hours to see a doctor, then they'll send me to psych and I'll probably have to stay overnight. I don't want to lose my job, put my apartment on the line, jeopardize my family finding out... I'm thinking I could go to a walk-in clinic instead, but I'm afraid they'll just send me to the hospital and I'll have to do the whole waiting room and explaining thing twice.
What do I do?
Im w/u I went through the same thing ... the whole waiting room thing then right to the pyschward. Which never helps me sorry ot......Anyways to answer your question.... should u go ? Only u can answer that question..... haven't said that, if u feeling suicidal ..... and dont want to die then yes..... but if u got a really good therapist & on meds.... perhaps a good counseling session could help. p.s. I'm also a cutter have been for 10 yrs now, so i know what you're going through. gl2u
Well, I went to a walk-in clinic and he wanted to call an ambulance and send me to the psych hospital, figures... I didn't let him though. But I understand, I guess he's not used to dealing with this type of thing at a clinic. So basically, he just told me to do what I had planned on doing - take care of it myself. So that was a waste of time.
I don't really know where I'm at right now. I've been on the same meds for years now, but I don't have my therapist anymore... have nobody to talk to. I see a social worker, but she doesn't really listen. There's not much point anyways, how can I get anyone to really understand or help when I don't understand myself, when I don't even know what I want or need?
Thanks for answering!