Fears and Issues About Upcoming Appointment

     I'm seeing my new/old psychiatrist on Monday... I'm hoping it will be one of those long "first meetings" - my social worker said the Dr. said it wasn't necessary because she "knows" me. I don't really see how that is possible, aside from the pile of info in my file. I've seen her once before. That was two years ago. My previous doctor left, so I was switched over to her. Around that same period, the new BPD program at another hospital started, so I was followed there.

     Now the program's over, so here I am. I am very thankful that she's seeing me so soon though because my social worker said she probably wouldn't see me until October, possibly November. But then again, she's also the person that smirks at and makes me feel guilty about living with chronic pain. She's also the one who says a regular follow-up is not good for "people like me" whatever that means. I know she's referring to the diagnosis - but is that all I am? Don't we all have different individual needs?

     So anywho, I should shut off the puter before a bolt of lightning makes it crash.

     I would really appreciate some prayer about this appointment. I need to have the strength and courage to ask for something to sleep because I can't go on much longer like this. I also really hope that my social worker won't be present at the meeting with the doctor...

     Thanks all, I appreciate it!

     Me

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