I'm seeing my new/old psychiatrist on Monday... I'm hoping it will be one of those long "first meetings" - my social worker said the Dr. said it wasn't necessary because she "knows" me. I don't really see how that is possible, aside from the pile of info in my file. I've seen her once before. That was two years ago. My previous doctor left, so I was switched over to her. Around that same period, the new BPD program at another hospital started, so I was followed there.
Now the program's over, so here I am. I am very thankful that she's seeing me so soon though because my social worker said she probably wouldn't see me until October, possibly November. But then again, she's also the person that smirks at and makes me feel guilty about living with chronic pain. She's also the one who says a regular follow-up is not good for "people like me" whatever that means. I know she's referring to the diagnosis - but is that all I am? Don't we all have different individual needs?
So anywho, I should shut off the puter before a bolt of lightning makes it crash.
I would really appreciate some prayer about this appointment. I need to have the strength and courage to ask for something to sleep because I can't go on much longer like this. I also really hope that my social worker won't be present at the meeting with the doctor...
Thanks all, I appreciate it!
Me
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It's me troubles, you are always in my prays and I know just how you feel . Being pushed from place to place and not finding what you need. Some of these doctors don't stop to think if it is easy for someone to trust them and than just push you to another doc. Its not as easy as some people think I don't care what they think. I have tried for so long to understand these ways . I guess I never will. But you take care. God bless you and we are here for youu.
It's not the doctor's fault but rather the system. Here, for medical problems, one is free to choose a doctor anywhere in the province... but for psychiatric care, patients are sent different places according to the area they live in. For example, if I go to the ER for psych in another hospital than the one I'm followed at and they think it necessary for me to be hospitalized, I'll be transferred - I have no say in it. This is the case even if I go to the hospital I was followed at 1, 2, or 3 times a week for two years a attended a group weekly for 2 years prior to that, I don't "belong" to them, so they can't do anything for me for more than 1 night.
So much treating mental illness on an equal level as any other disease. No wonder there's still so much taboo in that area. But shh, don't go bring that up when they tell you that you have nothing to be ashamed of because depression is an illness on the same ground as diabetes or arthritis. If that's the case, why aren't we treated just like patients with those illnesses? Why can't we choose the hospital we want to be followed at?
Alright I'll stop now, I'm just working myself up. I've been fuming all evening, I don't need more riling (sp?) myself up.
Take care,
Me
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