I miss my cat so much sometimes. Right now, I am at my mom's for the night and she it sleeping on my lap, purring loudly. I can't remember the last time she did that. I see how much she misses me too, even though I've treated her so badly sometimes. But right now, it's time to respect my limits. I am physically and mentally exhausted. Funny thing is, I've now started my physiotherapy, which I hope will help the headaches, but right now, it is causing more pain, more body aches and fatigue and it's forcing me to slow down. But I still can't relax, I haven't found a way to do that, haven't found something that works for me - so that it my quest. I have to get some better sleep too.
Talking about sleep, that's what I should try to do right now... I just wanted to drop in a show a sign of life and explain why I haven't been around in a while.
God bless,
Me
Thank you so much for posting your experience. It sounds horrific, and your honesty about what occured prior, during and post is not only informative and supportive to those of us trying to seek treatment, but of essential reading to the professionals out there who take the oath "First do no harm..."
I am so very sorry this all occured for you, and yet I am so proud of you for continuing to reach out even after you had put your plan into action.
Your voice is a stong and essential voice to be heard, and frankly, I would like to see your words posted on all billboards around the country for others to see and understand the severity and toll of mental illness for it to be taken seriously when it is wrongly shrugged off or dismissed.
Expressing ourselves is so very difficult, if not impossible, when experiencing depressoion and feeling suicidal.
Please, keep us posted on your recovery as you discover what works for you and if the support you are now receiving continues to be useful to you.
I am very grateful you are still here.
Best,
Kimberly Tyler