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Angst
Sunday, July 29 2007
Well, it seems like I'm going through yet another depression... I just don't know how I'll be handling it - so far, not so good. Also having BPD, my coping skills are really horrible. I've been away for a while, just got back this afternoon from staying at a crisis centre. I messed up, I visited the ER twice in a week. The first... Read more
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Angst
Tuesday, July 17 2007
I can't do it... I'm lost, torn, and broken inside. I'm not strong enough, I'm "weak" Just thinking about it makes me dizzy. The world is too loud, too crowded. I can't breathe - they won't let me. I know what I need to do, but I can't, I won't. I know I need to rest for a while. But I can't have... Read more
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Angst
Friday, July 13 2007
I don't know why I'm reminded of this night... a few years ago, I was at a party and wasn't feeling well at all. Group gatherings have always been difficult for me, maybe because I'm too sensitive and I interpret anything and everything the wrong way. So anyways, that night, I was doing a silent sketch to a charleston tune. We had... Read more
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Angst
Wednesday, July 11 2007
Why is it so hard to swallow the pill? I'm not talking about the cocktail I take morning and night... I mean this more in the sense of facing reality. I can't go to my mom's, I'm there 1 hour and I'm already feeling like steam is blowing out my nose; three days pass and I'm exhausted, drained. I get home, I... Read more
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Angst
Friday, July 06 2007
I just finished school. It took me five years to get myself well enough to go back. It was really rough, full-time was too much for me, I almost didn't make it through, but I finished, I graduated last week... I made it!
But now I just want to be left alone. I just want peace. I don't know what I want to do, I don't know what... Read more