i don't really know how this site works but i just wanted to let the lady know, the one that feels whinny, that your life is almost a mirror of mine. i think the only thing you and i can do is to try to do the best we can. sometimes we must depend on others. even if we never thought we would. i was a powerhouse before i got sick and now i'm just powerless. i hate my life most of the time and the rest of the time i am afraid. i get new meds all the time and give each of them a try. most don't work. it feels as if life is against us but i have to believe it isn't. i have tried suicide and been put in the nuthouse, neither is a solution. you are what you are now. i know it is tough to go outside and do anything ,but you must. you just have to. your life is different but it is not over. i know what i'm talking about. i'm just as scared as you are and i don't have any real answers to heal you or myself but if you give up you die. when you don't have anyone to talk to well hell talk to yourself, i do. just keep reminding yourself that there are others just like you and we can't all die. just get back on that computer and talk to us................
