I'm dying inside! I'm just at the end of my ropes. So here is my story! I lost my mom to breast cancer in June 2009 and my bf ,of over 10 years, left me in March 2010 and I relocated to the east coast in March 2011. I thought i could get through anything! i always been label the strong one of my family. I was molested by a family member and became pregnant at the age of 16, the state took me and my sisters and it paid for an abortion. The abortion has left me unable to have kids! I've never spoke these words to anyone its always been to hard to deal with! I found out that the guy i was with has had a child and he seems so happy with his new life! he has blocked me from his phone and now im messaging him via fb with no response! i just cant understand how we were together for so many years and he cuts me off just like that. I dont want a realationship with him i just miss talking to him! he always seem to care and really listen! this grief is so massive! i have drove my sisters crazy about talking about him all the time! so i just somehow have got to deal with this! when i think things are gettting better i fall right back into a slumper with no light to guide me! i use to talk to my mom about things and she always gave me a glimmer of hope! i have nothing left! i feel i have no reason to go on!!