Feeling Bad

I would give anything to just feel good one day. I wake up every morning hoping this day will be the one. I am so tired of feeling this way and sometimes the pain is more than I can handle. I am taking Effexor and have been for the last 2 years but to tell you I feel any better would be a lie. I feel like my depression has gotten worse and I keep going downhill.Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and never wake up but I have 3 reasons to try to hold on (as hard as it is) because they mean the world to me. If it would not be for my kids I know I would not be here. Has anyone ever felt like they were on a cliff and so many days you saw yourself right on the edge, and other days you were able to move away a little but yet still vulnerable on that cliff with no security because you can move to the edge so quickly.That is how I feel. I have been on this cliff for a while now and I don't know how to come down and as long as I am up there I am vulnerable and being that close to the edge you never know if or when that one thing is going to push you right over.I would not wish this pain on anyone.