Since therapy hasn't been working for me (ever, like, in years) I decided to buy myself a few self help books. That was years ago. But recent events in my life have made me revisit some of these books. I figured I would read a few pages, and then write here to express how they made me feel, or vent.
The first part of the book asks about how you saw anger when you were younger. It was weird for me to realize that even though both of my parents often expressed anger to me and in front of me, they expressed it in opposite ways. One was explosive, the other held it all in. Now that I'm an adult, I find myself doing both of these things when I am angry. Mostly, I hold it in until it boils over and then I explode, usually in a very unhealthy way. I don't want to blame them for my anger, yet it makes me angry that I am this confused about anger. I hope that working in this book helps me understand things much better.
I think that an anger workbook is smart for one main reason, taking out your anger is best and not holding it in. For a long time I held on to my anger and it ate me up inside. I started writing down things that made me mad or what I was so upset over. I lost my old life and I had to start over as a single mom. I blamed my ex and his girlfriends for everything until I started reading my past books. I learned that if I just let it go and stop punishing myself for everything that happened. I gave up on self help books and I started reading my bible more. It helped me to see were I had to change myself and live better. Thanks for reminding me about the books I still write things down and I guess I always will. Happy New Year to you.
