Nowhere to Turn

You are not alone in this feeling. I have always felt the same way and can understand your frustration. I wish that I could go see a counselor right now cause I know that can help with this, I cant even afford five dollars right now.

Pat

Yes, being in a situation where you are trapped like that does sound horrible and you are for the most part essentially trapped because of your parents. Have you thought of going back to school and getting training for a better job? Have you thought about moving up in status where ever you are working? Have you tried searching for other work? Do you have hobbies to keep you occupied so you are not constantly thinking about your life? I think these are really important things to consider and remember nothing is ever pernament except death. There is always a way out. And the whole praying thing? I get that too, and simply say "If there really was god that controlled everything and created me and my misery, he sure is not the kind I'd worship." You need to be more self focussed but proactive about it. Hope all goes well! And keep trying to improve your llife.

First of all, know you are not alone and that nothing is permanent. Things WILL change; you want to try to control how they change so that you feel you are making progress. I am surrounded by depressed people (two teens and my husband), and both meds and therapy help, but not enough if you ask me. You need supportive people in your life who won't be judgmental and who will mainly listen to you. But perhaps they can offer insight and advice into ways you can make small changes that will help pull you up so you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sounds like a new job would be first on the list -- can you afford to get training if you don't think you qualify or can get another, better job?

I also agree with the other (2nd) person who responded about finding interests/hobbies outside of work and your house that may create a spark in your life. Maybe there is a group/club that does the activity you enjoy -- like the Appalachian Mountain Club, or at the local YMCA, or if you like crafts, at a crafts store. There are also book clubs at Barnes and Noble. Also, look into NAMI (National Alliance for Mental Illness) since they host meetings once a month where you will be with others in similar situations who will understand what you're going through. 

Thinking of you and hoping things change for you soon. (At least you have a job in this economy!)

I can relate to everything you wrote.  I'm pretty much in the same boat and feeling so frustrated, angry, and resentful.  I'm not sure if it is the way I view things or if I keep making the same mistakes, thinking this time it is going to be different.  I'm in a job in which I feel totally useless, the company is cheap and not very good to their employees.  Yet, I've had amazing jobs in the past, and have always quit either due to my lack of ability to tolerate things or just plain boredom.

I have some remote hope that things will turn around in my life and keep trying.  I've given up on therapy.  Not too sure what that is supposed to accomplish, but I find it a total waste of money.  (No offense to those who have found what they are looking for).

I want to switch gears and move into being happy.  Not too sure where and how I will accomplish this, but I have to have hope.

Good luck to you.  I think keeping busy is the key to overcoming depression and to stop thinking about why I don't perceive things as others do.  Just to keep trying to do them is a quest unto itself.