Information and opinions on Depression from LonelyinMD at MyDepressionConnection.com. The HealthCentral Network, Inc. (www.HealthCentral.com) is one of the top health destinations on the Web, with more than 35 condition-specific, wellness and general health Web properties. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919 en-us 15 120 19 http://www.healthcentral.com/images/hc_logo_sm.gif http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/ http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/31684/create-title Sun Jun 22 21:28:05 -0400 2008 LonelyinMD Not sure where to begin.  I'm pretty sure this is going to ramble on, so if you don't care, or know you're going to get bored, you might as well stop reading now.  My job puts way too much stress on me, and because of my level of anxiety about all the things that COULD go wrong, I do nothing about it.  Being stressed tires me out and aggravates me, which usually leads to me not taking my meds regularly.  It's been a long... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/31684/create-title http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/20997/insomnia Sun Mar 02 06:14:00 -0500 2008 LonelyinMD I'm awake because I'm stressed.  I'm awake because I'm alone.  I'm awake because I'm worried.  I'm awake because all of these things are going on, and I have no one to talk to, no support.  My father is terribly sick, but it doesn't stop him from manipulating others and using my mother.  In the end, though, I'm the one who always has to pay for it.  He could die, and the only... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/20997/insomnia http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/18677/anger-workbook Thu Jan 03 21:46:00 -0500 2008 LonelyinMD Since therapy hasn't been working for me (ever, like, in years) I decided to buy myself a few self help books.  That was years ago.  But recent events in my life have made me revisit some of these books.  I figured I would read a few pages, and then write here to express how they made me feel, or vent.  The first part of the book asks about how you saw anger when you were younger.  It was weird for me to realize that... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/18677/anger-workbook http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/18517/happy-year Mon Dec 31 17:42:00 -0500 2007 LonelyinMD I don't know how I could be on more medication and feel worse than ever.  I'm not sure if it's that or the fact that I've spent each holiday this season ALONE.  As of right now, that's how I'll enter 2008, which means another lonely year for me.  It ****** me off, but there's nothing I can do about it.  Except eat.  Eating seems to be the only thing I've been good at today.  I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/18517/happy-year http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/17200/scary-doubts Sun Dec 02 18:07:00 -0500 2007 LonelyinMD This is going to be really hard for me to get through. I don't know why I'm posting it other than to get it out of my system. I'm not sure anyone will read it, or that anyone will care. A year ago this past week, I lost my grandfather and my uncle, two days apart. I cannot begin to explain the hurt that runs through me. A large part of me blames myself for my grandfather's death. My aunt and I found him lying on the floor, and I... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/17200/scary-doubts http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/17177/barely Sun Dec 02 11:19:00 -0500 2007 LonelyinMD I knew this was going to be a bad week, but I didn't think it would continue for so long.  Last year, this week, I lost my uncle and my grandfather within two days of each other.  It doesn't feel like they're gone, let alone been gone a whole year.  I miss them so much.  I don't understand why people have to be taken from us like that, so unexpectedly.  So I guess we'll call this Trigger 1.Trigger... http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/17177/barely http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/16781/holidays Thu Nov 22 11:41:00 -0500 2007 LonelyinMD I'm sure a lot of people here have a hard time making it through this holiday season.  Does anyone have any good coping strategies? http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/16781/holidays http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/16550/introduction Sat Nov 17 23:41:00 -0500 2007 LonelyinMD It looks like I've found a new place to get my feelings out.  I hope someone will listen and respond here.  If I had to choose a reason as to why I'm depressed, I'd mostly say it's because I'm not comfortable with myself.  I'm not comfortable being alone, not comfortable with the way I look, etc.  I hope that being a part of this community helps me. http://www.healthcentral.com/depression/c/26919/16550/introduction