crafty52

Health Interests

Depression,  Bipolar,  and Attention Deficiet

Drugs I am Taking

Concerta,  Provigal,  Effexor,  Synthroid and Plavix

About Me

I am very depressed. All I want to do is sleep. Because I can't seem to deal with the world. I am so loney and empty. Feel I am no good to myself or anyone else. Can't seem to get the simplest things done. I am having more and more trouble leaving the house. Can clean my house. It is a hog pen. I'm really sorry my husband puts up with me. I want to do better, there is no motivaition or focus. And I take drugs for this. But  doesn't seem to work. I really do not like myself. I got into Mary Kay a few years back and due to a MK woman over me pushing me to buy more inventory. I got myself into a huge mess. To the tune of $50,000. Never told my husband. So I lived in fear of that for several years. And told him a year and half ago. And my husband hates debt. So you can imagine what my life has been. Plus he never has anything good to say to me. And that doesn't help. Been married 35 years. But I would like to say they were good. But he is very controlling and I have dealt with alot verbal abuse. But I am to scared to go out on my own. I've always been on under a man's thumb. People keep telling me to get out but that is easier said than done when you don't have a job or no security. I am a good tole painter, but seems no one like that anymore. And a good florist. But can't get a job cause I can't leave the house.