i know i'm not alone, but today things have gotten so much worse. my partner of 6years who has been on anti d's but depressed for years today turned to me, after i pured my heart out to him, like he asked me too and has said he will come home some point, but doesn't know when, he needs to get his head straight before he sees me, WTF? he hasn't got his head straigh in years why whould be he be able to do that in an hour or two?
he keeps talking of disapearing and kiling himself, and i've heard it so often i don't know if its true or not, i just don't know what to think or feel, i've given him, time comassion and i love him to bits, but him treating me like crap isn't helping. he has pushed me so far away i can't take much more, but what do i do, if i go, he says he will kill himsefl if say he says he hates me and i am the reason he has all these problems?!
sorry if i sound angry towards him, but right now i'm so feeked off with him! i have 3 children, a 11 yr old, 10yr old and 2yr old. my 10yr old is on oxgyen wiht a life threatning illness i (not his child) i have enough crap to get through the day myself, he isn't helping me or the kids. the 2yr old is his, and i asked if he would come home tonight to put her to bed and he just said i need to stop bombarding him that he'll be home wheneva...i wouldn't mind that but he has sent me 67 text msgs today, moaning, blittling and snapping at me!
sorry for this down post i just need to know i'm not alone and that there is light at the end of tunnel? x
hi
Your right there is a light at the end of the tunnel.BTW,I'm still looking for it too.
It sounds like he's using you as a scapegoat. You are not the cause of his problems.Each of us has to own up to our own problems.I know I don't have didly squat in the way of expertise.I've learned alot from my own and others experiences.You have a right to be angry. You are probably saying yeah right he's from mars. That may be true.I only can say what I know.
Even If he were right.Not saying he is,He still shouldn't abuse you mentally.
Truthfully,
Jon Ward
Thank you so much! its just nice to know that it isn't me!
tonight we made some kind of connection, i know its brief and that tomorrow he will no doubt hate me agian, but its these brief times we share just holding each other that i love so much, he is my man again during these times. I just wish they would last!
i will keep coming here for support, we've a long road ahead of us xx
Hi
I Hope things work out for you. I'm glad you didn't take offense to anything I said.
Have a good day,
The best any of us could ask for.
Jon