I would like to congradulate you on first getting up and going to see a physician to deal with your issues and for putting your story out there. I think a lot of people can relate to one thing or another you have gone through.
I fit in the category of putting up the wall and not talking about my issues and or insecurities- USUALLY ( : I am trying to go about that differently and this site just so happens to be my first step! I have only gone as far as checking out the web to see which physician to make an appt with.
Anyhow we all have to start somewhere. Keep your journaling coming you are a great journalist, you really know how to phrase things so they are understanded.